I'm decently disappointed with my progress, especially since last months' sparkaversary was so nice. As is life. You win and then you don't. There are ups and there are downs. June was a down for me, and not in weight. Not only did I not lose weight this month, I gained 3 pounds. I was pleasantly surprised to see that my last blog got a popular award, but then I felt guilty, because I feel like I let myself down and everyone that was happy for me.
The thing is that I'm not going to let it get me down. I'm back and I'm ready to do what's right for my body, mind, and spirit. I wrote a success tip that says, "Keep on keeping on." Yes! That is exactly what I'll do. I will NOT take the downward spiral that I've so easily fell into in the past.
First of all, I'm probably being a little hard on myself because I really haven't fallen off the wagon too bad. I am still doing some good things for myself. I still have been Coke and soda free for 6 whole months. Still no flaming hot cheetos before bed, still no sugar in my morning coffee, still trying to make some good choices, even if those choices are a little more rare than they were 3 months ago.
Second of all, I'm being hard on myself because I had a legitamate reason for slowing down a bit. A few weeks ago I ate a hamburger at a certain place that I used to love, and unfortunately got food poisoning. I got so so sick for a week. I got dehydrated, was unable to do my normal workouts, and then by the time I got better from that, I was dealing with the dehydration, and severe low iron anemia. My hair started falling out, I was so tired and dizzy. I felt like my brain was vibrating and I would even black out while standing up and have to immediately sit back down. I started taking my daily vitamin (which I had been slacking on) and some B12, and some biotin, and I stopped counting calories because I felt like I needed to build my strength back up. Unfortunately I ended up eating some unhealthy things and a bit too much of it. Between the lack of my regular hard workouts and the extra calories, I ended up gaining 3 pounds this month.
3rd-ly, I'm being too hard on myself because I had crazy crazy events and things happening this month that made it difficult for me to focus on my health and weightloss journey. We had a week long gospel meeting at church, which lasted from Sunday to Sunday which was 8 whole days of busy, busy, busy. During that, my daughter got invited to her best friend's church Kids Camp that was 3 days at 8 in the morning when I live an hour away. So I'd come home after 1:30 pm and barely have enough time to rest before we were going back to our church for the meeting. The week before, my kids had hip hop dance camp at my daughter's dance studio for 4 days in the afternoons. That is also an hour away. Needless to say that recovering from food poisoning, battling my anemia, and dehydration, I was EXHAUSTED! I found myself eating donuts or muffins for energy. (Bad choice, I know)
The top photo is my 8 year old daughter on the very right, with her dance best friend, and her boy dance friend who she's known since they were 3. He also partnered her in a little cha cha for opening number of their Spring recital. The 2nd photo is my 6 year old son. Aren't they so cute? They had a blast. Mama, may have been exhausted, but they loved it.
As soon as I had a nice empty week, except for their gymnastics on Thursday evening, I took time to relax and just enjoy being home. I did go ahead and do some workouts to get back into excersizing, but I started out with my Leslie Sansone videos instead of rushing back into Turbo Jam. It felt so GOOD to workout again. I plan on easing back into it, but starting today I'm also going to start tracking my food again and eating better.
So in conclusion. I haven't given up, I'm still going. I might have had to sit down for a moment on my journey, but I have not stopped the trip. Sometimes life throws some curveballs at you, but you just have to keep swinging. I refuse to give up and you will all see me here on Spark. Here's to month 7. Next month I turn 38 on the 8th and I want to feel great for my birthday. My goal is to track my food, workout 4 times a week and reach 197. I'm so sad that I finally reached One-derland last month and then went right back into the 200's. I'm still so close and with a little work, I'll be right back on track.