Oh Hi, It's been about 4 years huh?

Why hello there.

It's been a while I know. Don't be mad at me please. I betrayed you. I went to MFP. MFP was hipper, like the Facebook to Myspace. I practiced IIFYM. I went through 4 very hard years. I gained weight and found myself back up to 200 pounds in November 2016. I also found myself in a destructive relationship, two dead end jobs, and in and out of the cancer treatment center.

Fast forward. 2017 was rough. I don't want to start there. Besides it's 2018. I'll be 29 in 10 days and I'm excited to see where this year takes me. Up. I know that much.

Today is February 6, 2018 and it was day two of my new job. Orientation was absolutely killer...and not in the good sense. More of the Bundy or Gacy sense. It blew. Not the job, just sitting in a class room for 7.5 hours is not my jam. I need to move. Real work starts tomorrow. Back to the 9 to 5 grind, it's been 2 months since I left my other job and I've been bored out of my mind.

Patrick has kept me sane. He has been the biggest blessing that has ever entered my life. He'll appear every so often when I write. He's pretty rad. I'll give you a visual below.



So I'm going to attempt to blog daily. Just to go through my daily thoughts, feelings, emotions. Look back on how my life has affected myself, other people, my cats. Especially them. They're my everything.

Today I had a list of 3 things I needed to do. They all involved calling people. I had to call my car insurance because they sent e a somewhat nasty email that if I didn't call them my rates could go up. After 30 minutes of smooth jazz while I waited for the next representative, they just needed to verify my address. Way to go Flo. Scaring me like that.

I called my Mom. As much as I love her voice, especially since I relocated to Chicago and she's still in Savannah, I must confess I was in and out in this conversation. Not because I didn't want to hear about every little thing that was happening in Savannah for the 43 minutes on the phone, but also I was inhaling stuffed zucchini that I had reheated for dinner. Mushrooms, TVP, Tomatoes, Bell Pepper, Onion, and Zucchini. All in my mouth with plenty of nooch and cheese. I ate 2. No Shame. Mom didn't even notice.

Obviously after a total of over a whole hour on the phone I didn't make my third phone call. I don't care. It can be on my list tomorrow.

Coming home today the apt was empty besides the cats. Patrick doesn't get off until 10 tonight, but he didn't leave before completely cleaning the apt including leaving me the cutest note on our dry erase board. He also helped me get the car de-snowed this morning before driving to work considering my southern self isn't quite used to these snowy Chicago roads. He's tits.

Food wise today I did okay. I've let my eating habits go. It's okay. Happens to everyone at some point right?

Vegan Protein Bar - 180
Stuffed Zucchini Filling - 250
Coffee w/ Almond Milk and Fake Sugar - 45
Stuffed Zucchini - 600
Japanese Peanuts - 230
Peanut Butter Crunch w/ Almond Milk - 150

Total - 1455

Today's weight was 165.8.

There is a slight chance I will be eating some carrot cake that Patrick biked to Whole Foods to get me yesterday because it was first day at work. The calories on it is DENSE to say the least, but there's no way I'm not eating it. I'll make up for it. Like everything else there has to be give, but there also has to be pull. I'm looking to join a gym that's about a mile away from my job. Patrick and I will be visiting it on his next day off.

Tomorrow I'm thinking of doing some sort of smoothie for breakfast, replacing cottage cheese in all these recipes out there with Tofu. Could be tasty right?

I suppose I should get some rest considering tomorrow I meet all my new co-workers. My outfit is picked out. My lunch is made. I'm quite the square. Not procrastinating is my New Year's resolution after all.

Cheers,
Amber