I Ate a Heck of a Lot of Cake.
Tuesday, February 20, 2018
Patrick has been on Vacation since Feb 12th. He goes back tomorrow. He is very dear to me but I have been eager for some alone time. We've been absolutely busy doing things. All of which I loved and enjoyed very much. Personally being new to a very different city than Savannah I'm a bit overwhelmed with traveling to different places alone. It's not a safety issue more of an anxiety issue. Patrick has been more than helpful when it comes to holding my hand and guiding me to different areas. He's only been here for 4 years, but he's made friends, established his regular title at a few bars and venues and knows exactly where to get the best Vegan Rueben in the world and I didn't even like reubens before.
We went to The Adler Planetarium for their after dark program on the 15th, a day before my birthday and a day after Valentines. We don't really celebrate Valentines. There's too much commercial pressure on that Holiday for young couples that can't afford jewelry or 4 dozen roses or steak and lobster. Instead we got each other something small and Anti-Valentines. My gift from him was an Anti-Valentine’s Day barf bag from Creepy Co. Included was horror movie valentines, stickers, and heart shaped lapel pin that said "Stab Me"... You get the picture. And of course I got him a needlepoint done by xxStitchxxBitchxx on IG or Etsy. You can find her both places. She's fantastic and I love her quality and quirkiness. His needlepoint had a Fist with flowers that read "Thank you for bot fisting me" Pictured below. He loved it.
The Adler Planetarium brought the absolute inner geek out in me. I loved it. I especially loved it being open at night featuring bands and pop up bars and no children. I will gladly pay double a ticket price for these offerings. Last year we went to a cocktail party at the GA Aquarium in ATL that was adult only and it was absolutely wonderful. The Adler was the same. Stars and science and artifacts that they didn’t usually bring out because children may destroy them were everywhere. Just delightful. Feel free to glance below for a couple photos.
I must admit I’m still a bit awkward at social gatherings. Well I’ve always been a bit awkward, but now that I’m completely sober I don’t exactly know what to do with myself. It was so easy before. Just grab a cocktail, start a chat with a cutie in the line waiting, inquire what someone was drinking to start up a conversation. Now what? It was easy to quit. I was actually bartending when I did. Why? Just to prove to people that I absolutely could. I had surrounded myself with what Patrick likes to call “Emotional Vampires” and they were bleeding me dry. People that I called friends that just sucked the happiness and life out of me, but that’s okay cause we would drink and feel sorry about our current situations and forget our problems. I was a physically ill with the whole cycle. So I stopped. It’s been 9 months and I dropped an additional 35 pounds. Well 25 of that I had regained from my original weight loss, and then my body graciously gave me another 10 pounds.
I know my tangents are never ending when I write. I tell myself if I keep ideas open and just go with the flow that I would in fact blog more often. I used to care about social media. About what people thought when I posted a picture or a blog or status. How many likes would I get? How many people would comment? Whose attention could I get today? 2018…not so much. I’m kind of being selfish this year, focus is on how much I like myself, the comments I make about myself, and me spending all the attention that I can on myself. 2018 is the year of healing.
So with that being said my 29th birthday was Friday. This was my cake.
And for three nights straight Patrick and I had cake and ice cream topped with cocoa nibs until my stomach was full and happy.
Current Weight 165.2