Sunday, May 13, 2018
I have been a mother for 9 years now to my 18 year old son and 7 to my 16 year old son. I have had a lot of people say I'm a good mother and the boys are lucky to have me. I wouldn't agree but I guess I'm better than foster care? I know both boys have nothing good to say about CPS. All we can do is our best. My oldest son often tells me he loves me and that is so precious. My younger son can't wait until he is 18 and can move out. He is the one that was moved often because of his behavior. So he has had a home here for 7+ years and never lived in one home for more than 2 years before I adopted him and several times only a month before he had to move in foster care. I wonder how he'll survive on his own. I wish I could be more patient with him but he really pushes my buttons. He is so rude and such an attitude. Guess some things were just too deeply ingrained by age 9. So today I feel a little bitter on mother's day and just wanted to hope for a better year to come.