Wednesday, May 23, 2018
... My life feels like I am riding a rollercoaster going mach speed and twisting upside down, going way up and straight back down lately. It has been many life changes at once. Good things, a few bad, and a few I am still unsure of where to categorize them, good or bad.
Tomorrow I restart keto. Something has got to give on the ride and sitting down stuffing my face with chips and pop to eat away my anxieties is top on the list. Keto is rather foreign to my pepsi and chip loving body and mind that does not like most meat, but it is the best choice and one I have to do. The results were there last time and healthier choices for eating were mandatory... though really ... a diet with jalepeno poppers as a good thing has a way of making it seem like a dream diet to go on. This is not a diet though... I have to make it a lifestyle choice, not a temporary thing. Once I had my operation last year I went right back to high carbs and sugars. I started to lose the weight again this fall, after peaking at almost 200 pounds this summer. The peak took its toll on my body, and my knees and back screamed at me to get my act together. I was down to 154 a few weeks ago, but got in a funk and packed on 15 pounds in like 2 or 3 weeks! The disappointment in myself is massive. What funk? The back is screwed up is a big one but I added to it, I quit smoking about 7 weeks ago, then my job, with my court date looming for custody and divorce. My crutches were gone and I heaped on stress so it is not like I do not see why I turned to emotional eating as my renewed crutch.
Time for a change! Today I am prepping myself for it. Writing down keto recipes, meal plannning, and I am going to an intermittent fast tomorrow and then do a broth soup for dinner to break the fast and make sure I dont get hit to hard with the keto flu. Then the next day I picked up ingredients for my fave meals,so I feel like I am spoiling myself going into keto, not depriving myself. Got to start back on the road to healthy living. Since I can not do a lot of exercise at the moment, I am hoping keto can boost my butt back onto the weightloss train.