Saturday, July 07, 2018
...still taking it easy with my back. I have to consider to go back on my meds mainly the one I take for my arthritis. I been gradually falling in this pit over the last two weeks. I have tried to get rid of the meds in the past and forgot for a moment how stupid that really is. My body is constantly in tension. With the reduced mobility from the back injury I can tell exactly what my arthritis is doing. My days are more and more stressful because my joints are screaming at me. It's denial in a different form. Just as many struggle with soda addictions or sugar cravings I struggle with the notion that I actually need the pain meds. It puts me in a spin and like a bad diet it always back fires. But I always try and try again. I think it is time to break once and for all that cycle and talk about it with my doctor. I always am afraid to get addicted or get other issues like liver and stomach problems from taking too much medications. Also there is the fact that I don't do well with stronger meds; like my body reminded me right after I hurt my back and needed muscle relaxers and prescription strength pain meds.
So while I am trying desperately to stay on track with at least 20 to 30 minutes of daily exercise and eating mindfully; my body has other ideas. I haven't gained or lost all week, so that it positive. My plan will be to take the meds and slowly over the next week increase the steps up to at least 8000 again. I teeter right now anywhere between 3500 and 7000. … and put more vegetables in my diet. Did I mention that I hate vegetables for the most part?!?
yah, well I do. Bake me a bread roll and I am your girl.