I'm BAAAACKKKKKKKKKK Yet AGAIN!

Kinda sounds like a broken record. Geez Louise. I feel like I have hopped on the wagon so many times just to jump right off as soon as it was convenient. I don't really have that option anymore.

Two weeks ago, I was sent to the ER because my blood pressure was extremely high. Pretty scary high. I am on medication now and hoping to get it under control. I need to get my weight down. I have another appointment this week to see how I am progressing. This time it is not a choice. If I want to continue to live. If I want to continue to see my babies graduate, get married and have their own babies...I need to put my big girl panties and get my butt in gear.

I have done it once before so I know that I am capable of doing. THE WANT apparently hasn't been there. And in order for this to work, I need to want it. I don't want to depend on medication to keep me feeling good.

Tomorrow I will work on a meal plan for the week and sticking with it. New challenge starts on Monday. Mentally I am ready for it. I need it. Fresh start. Fresh beginning.

These are my people. I love them so much. And I have always done for them and put their wants and needs before mine. Now it is time for me to take care of me.