Depression and Weight
Friday, March 06, 2020
It has been a hard week. Like many people out there (maybe you!) I live with chronic depression and general anxiety disorder. And maybe, like you, I manage my condition very well. Therapy and medication keep my depression under control and 99.% of the people I interact with, work with and socialize it don't have clue.
But for the last 40 years my mental health has been closely tied to my physical health. OK, this is not a surprise, but while depression, anxiety, and other mental health conditions do NOT in themselves CAUSE you to gain weight; the intrinsic desire for comfort during episodes can influence us to seek out foods that bring us joy and comfort rather than health and nutrition.
This has been my last week. All my triggers were pushed at the same time: financial insecurity, emotional conflict with loved ones, and a small physical injury. These triggers create an situation where the afflicted person feels helpless and worthless. In my case I turn to food.
The sad part is that I know better. Logically I tell myself that it will not help and I won't feel better in the long run, but those nagging doubts in my head yearn for deep dish extra cheese pizza, Ben and Jerrys Ice cream and anything Italian. The bad thing is that after the binge the guild slams you hard, and you desire even more comfort. It's like an addiction.
So like most 12 step programs, I just stop, forgive myself and decide to start over today. I'm still at a low point in my cycle and things seem worse than they are, but I'm not going to let food be the cure.
I'm back on track and starting over. Don't stress out about yesterday. Just do better today.
Thanks for reading!