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But how? How can I do it?

Wednesday, July 01, 2020

I went out this morning to run an errand, quite a bit of walking was involved. But!! I went to pay for the stuff at one place, sigh, I had forgotten my wallet!! So home I went to get it, but didn't want to go alllll the way back. Instead I choose to shop at the local grocery store which is less than 2 1/2- 3 mins walk from where I live. LOL This time I MADE SURE I DID have my wallet (Checked 3 times though all I had done was walk into my place, grab it and walk right out, oh and said HI to Izzy! My cat)

Those who have been reading my blog know that since June 4th I've been in pain thru the abdomen area. I've had various tests and so far, no answers. Next week HOPEFULLY they'll find the source after a colonoscopy and endoscopy. MAN I HOPE SO!!

As I walked out of the store, I about doubled over in pain. I am guessing I had done to much, I am not used to not being able to do as I want. I need to respect my body as it is the way as it is.

I did have my GGS this afternoon. Thankfully he was tired and slept within an hour and a half from getting here. He slept for 3 1/2 hours. He's so precious and such a very good kid. He's 3, so I've taught him recently how to climb up on me, without hurting me. Amazing how kids seem to know something isn't quite right.

Still I am tired. Yet I didn't want to stop. My GD when she picked up the little guy tonight asked me if she should find someone else (if she can, it'll be so hard for her) to take care of him as much as she can until I feel better. I really didn't know what to say. Yes, I hurt, YES it helps to be able to stay in jammies, curled up in a ball, but the little guy is also a most wonderful distraction. How can I want to cry when he has me laughing so hard? How can you feel OUCHERS Sad when you hear the giggling of a sweet child who laughs A LOT?

How do you find that balance? Is there one?

Some of you know I am on day 4 of my goals here's how I did:

Daily step goals 8,000: I did 8,407 of which most was done before the pain hit so badly this AM.
Freggies (FRuit/vEGGIES) of 2 daily: I did ZERO. I just couldn't put myself thru it, and that's okay.

A GOAL is that, a GOAL. Not a demand. Now being that its a GOAL i want to do it, and that's great!! The desire is there. That's cool. In the past I'd of not chosen this and remained determined that thru the end of July I stay the course.

Hopefully tomorrow I wont hurt so badly. if I do, the steps do NOT have to met, but I'll try for the Freggies. Thankfully tomorrow I have the little guy for only 6 hours. He'll be out with his Nana and father so he'll be quite tired when he's here, and likely sleep 3 1/2 - 4 hrs.


How can I do this? Sheet love for my GD and of course, my GGS. Its so touching how concerned she is about me, but yeah that's not unusual. She's a sweet kid.

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  • RETIREDSUE
    Sorry that you've been dealing with such pain! Guess I haven't been checking out the blogs during the break! emoticon Hope that you get answers soon. emoticon on working towards those goals. I need to to the step goal too! Unless I do a good treadmill workout (and sometimes even if I do) I don't usually hit 8000 steps and I really should aim for that.
    41 days ago
  • LESLIELENORE
    I pray you will have an answer with those tests!
    43 days ago
  • HAPPYELF
    emoticon to you. I hate it when I am forgetful!! I usually put my wallet in my gym bag and forgotten to move it back to my purse. And yes, I have gone to the store after work and had a cart full of stuff that I had to leave at the check out because...NO Wallet. Kind of embarrassing too. I am sending up prayers for some answers for you.
    44 days ago
  • ORTATK
    Take care of yourself and I hope that you can find the cause and correct it soon. I was recently in the hospital quite surprising to me. I had a bleeding ulcer and did not know. It is no longer bleeding but boy am I weak. I am so glad it is cloudy as I would be so sad to not take care of my garden.

    Keep being you best advocate.

    45 days ago
  • FRANNIEDID
    I sure hope you get your answers, I will be thinking of you!
    45 days ago
  • DEBBY4576
    So the meds the doctor put you on aren't helping at all? emoticon
    45 days ago
  • AKA_TROUBLE
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    45 days ago
  • PATRICIA-CR
    emoticon advice! Have they checked the feminine organs too? I hope this pain will be solved soon and that it's something manageable. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    45 days ago
  • NEW-CAZ
    Hope you get answers soon Diane, you've had more than your fair share of medical problems hun, I wish you well again.

    stay safe hun emoticon
    45 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    thank you
    45 days ago
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