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Day 6 Challenge - Blog Post

Saturday, August 29, 2020

I have been planning to blog but haven't actually done it yet so I guess it's a good thing that this is the day six challenge. Sharing personal information publicly is not something I do much of and it makes me a bit uncomfortable. Even with facebook, I'm on but rarely post. I'm not sure why. I guess in my mind I think I'm going to see someone in 'real life' that has read something personal about me and is going to judge me by that. Odd, I know...but there is a reason for my paranoia that I won't get in to just yet.

Anyway....for this weight loss attempt I've decided that I really need to step out of my comfort zone. I see many other people post and blog and I truly enjoy reading their stories. Many I find inspirational. Perhaps someone will enjoy my story and eventually I hope to also be inspirational.

I have about 100 pounds to lose to get to the weight I was at when I got married. More realistically, 80 pounds to where I think I will be comfortable. I've never been a thin person, as a kid I was just a bit chubby and when my parents divorced and my mother left I put on a lot of weight. I was tortured in middle school and early high school for my weight but ended up losing a lot of it before I graduated. I maintained a fairly decent weight up until I got married and had kids. When I was pregnant with my first, my daughter, I put on enough weight to give birth to a full grown six year old. Funny...but true. When I was pregnant with my second, my son, I tried to be more careful but still put on a lot of weight. And so...for the past 22 years I have struggled, with the last five years really being devastating to my weight and health.

And so here I am....I am on day six and have done well this week. No junk food, no processed foods, and already the bloated feeling in my abdomen is feeling better. I love the interaction here on SparkPeople and hope to make some friends here. I also love the things like points and daily check ins that really help to make you come back and be accountable. My official weigh in day is Monday but I peeked at the scale and I think I am going to be happy with this week's results.

If anyone does stumble across this...feel free to drop me a note, I love hearing from others!

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    I am so happy you discovered the 21-Day Challenge. I think it is really great at teaching us to use SparkPeople and find the areas that best suit us. (It took me 3 months to get through it, LOL, as I wasn't always great about doing the work, especially if it was something I was not eager to do). So I am especially proud of you for doing the Day 6 blog. You did a fine job too! I think your story is very relatable and there really isn't anything in there that someone should be judgemental of.

    And in regard to judgment, I have found SparkPeople to be a safe place, without drama and criticism which is of course, the kind of place everyone who has weight, health, and self-esteem issues needs. So welcome to SparkPeople!

    emoticon and you will too!

    227 days ago
    congrats on your first blog post!!!
    have been where you are re: feeling self-conscious about everyone knowing my personal stuff, being mocked in school, people judging me.

    and sometimes it's all in our heads, and sometimes they really are judging us. either way, it doesn't change who we are inside and i got tired of constantly worrying and trying to be someone that others accepted. nowadays i embrace the weirdness and let my freak flag fly proudly. there are definitely moments where i want to cringe and hide, i live in a (growing but) small town. lots of judgement when you're different and more than just a dash of racism.

    but really, i've decided to own it and be myself. and, i'm A LOT happier. i try to react and respond out of love and kindness when people say ridiculous or judgemental things. i regret all the years i spent holding myself down, trying to keep to myself. wish i had more confidence when i was younger. trying to model good self esteem for my kid and about half the time, i succeed. it can be a difficult road (especially with Social Anxiety).

    (wow, this got long and i'm sorry)

    i wear crazy pins at work to express myself and when i get compliments, i know i'm not alone out here. do the things that interest you, be as open as you're comfortable with. think of it as wearing pins with your likes and personality traits on them, so we can recognize and find each other out in the world. find new and interesting people. build your Tribe and let them be a wall between you and the judgemental people. if they don't really like you as you are, then don't let their opinions weigh you down. the people who matter are the ones that love and support the real you.

    ok. sorry again about the lengthy rambling. shutting up now. hope your day is great!!!
    228 days ago
    emoticon You are off to a great start and there is nothing wrong with peeking emoticon
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