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Renewed Focus

Saturday, December 05, 2020

I haven't written a blog for nearly a year. In fact, I haven't done a lot of things for nearly a year. So much has changed in a year and yet so much is the same.

I began the year as I had the past 29 years, working as a home health aide and in October I retired. I actually retired earlier than I expected and the main reason was COVID. I, like many other health care workers, had tired of this illness and the effects it was having on my life and the life of others around me. The way that it has infected our lives, not just by the physical illness but psychologically, has been devastating.

At first, we just set aside certain activities because, after all, it was just a virus and would pass and we would return to our "normal" lives soon. We just needed to sacrifice for a few weeks...months...and it has dragged on. We are separated from friends and family, hoping to shield one another from the spread. Now we are holding out hope for a vaccine which is seemingly around the corner. But really...when will it arrive?

So, I am renewing my focus on the things in life which are important to me by taking charge once again of things I CAN control. I CAN take care of my health and I CAN find ways to maintain and develop relationships with my family now that I am retired and even at a distance. It's time to pull myself out of this fog, see more clearly the people and activities which make life worth living,and establish new/renewed priorities.

The Winter Warriors BL Challenge began Dec. 2 and I am looking forward to reaching goals I have set for myself. I have recreated a "chart", which I have used in the past, to remind me of my goals and tasks that I want to accomplish. I hope to be more supportive of my team this round than I was in the Summer and Fall challenges.

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    Jerri - sounds like you were having a tough time - being a front line care worker must be so hard. Am happy to see you are no longer in it. See you have a new photo and you look SO much more relaxed - happy to see it.
    You may not remember saying it as my partner became terminal with cancer - but I certainly do. ' You will find a strength you didn't know you had'. Was very grateful for that and it kept me going thro SO much. He was determined to stay at home and knowing that he meant that, I couldn't refuse. I nursed him to his dying breath with your words ringing in my head and I want to thank you for that because altho it took me a long, long time to get past it all, I did what he needed with almost no assistance due to Covid. Who would've thought?
    I'm glad you are free of all that now and wish you all things good - as far as 'good' is at all possible at the moment.
    I won't be a Dragon again for a while because I need to relax and recoup some strength again but I hope you won't forget me and keep me up to date when there's a new challenge.
    Enjoy the current Challenge - and be safe and well - Sonia XXX

    58 days ago
    Hi, hope your doing good. I was in home care. But do to the virus I quit doing it. I cant wait till things get back to normal. I miss everyone. We dont go anywhere. I haven't ate out since march. That's ok it was a bad habit to break.
    You can do it. Good luck. And be safe.
    74 days ago
    So glad you have retired. I can't imagine being a front line care worker right now. May your life with family and friends be healthy and safe.
    Good luck with your challenge!
    84 days ago
    Good to see you blogging again and digging in with SP and a challenge.
    Yes, it sure has been hard this year. My husband retired earlier than planned too, due to Covid.
    Let's hope this nightmare will be over soon, with vaccinations.
    Take care and emoticon emoticon emoticon
    86 days ago
    This year has been hard. The good result is we are all doing what you are doing-focusing on family, our health, our blessings. God bless you.
    86 days ago
    It will take a little adjusting but you will get used ti the retired life. I am busier now doing things I like and enjoy
    86 days ago
    retiring is a huge change..I miss people..
    86 days ago
    Wishing you a great challenge! emoticon
    86 days ago
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