I've been thinking, analyzing and pondering about why my weight gain. So many thoughts swirling around in my head. Other blogs and helpful SP articles I've read, doing 5% challenges I start out strong and fizzle out makes me wonder what is going on with me??!! Am I back in that vicious cycle of feeling like a failure each time I try and don't succeed?? I KNOW I can do this.
I had success with the 5% challenge not that long ago and the feeling was magical. I felt good, healthy, confident, proud of myself, walked taller, got new clothes that fit nicer, got compliments.....all the "feel good" emotions you get from succeeding a goal.
I was doing all the right things to have a healthy lifestyle.......and, then... I got over confident, lazy with my actions, careless with control and 2020 hit us like a Mack truck. It's always easier to point a finger to place blame.....but, I must remember that when I point elsewhere there are three other fingers pointing back at me! I AM in control of only one person.......ME!
No doubt about it being sheltered in place was a challenge and downer for many. Having your freedom taken away so to speak or at least, significantly limited can change your attitude. I was reading some goals others had written for themselves for 2021. Drink more water
, exercise more
, portion control, eat more veggies
, track food
. All of these listed are a piece of the puzzle to have a healthy lifestyle. As I looked them over I realized I had lost sight of all these wonderful daily tasks. In addition, I live with and am a caregiver for unhealthy person with unhealthy eating habits who is unwilling to change. Although I am basically a happy, upbeat person often laughing and smiling I suspect with this past year being in "lock down" with DH I most likely am struggling with depression and not even realized it.
So, how do I help myself??? Well, all of the healthy daily living tasks are important but the MOST important for me was tracking everything I eat. Seeing the numbers of calories add up as the day progresses is such a (rude?) awakening! I think it is utmost important and necessary to do. It is so easy to just "pop"
something into our mouth throughout the day/evening and not even think of the consequences with calorie intake going off the chart!!
It goes without saying then, my 2021 goal is TRACKING, TRACKING, TRACKING and get myself back to feeling like the successful person I know I am capable of being.