“You can’t let your failures define you – you have to let them teach you. You have to let them show you what to do differently next time.” (Barack Obama)
Hello, my lovely friends!
I just feel at a loss for words right now. I’ve had this blank page staring at me for a few hours now with nothing coming to mind. Maybe I’ll just brain dump right now, but honestly, I’m not even sure if I have that in me. Let’s just start typing and see what comes off it, okay?
The past day or so I’ve been going through music trying to find what would represent my grandpa for the video. He loved Frank Sinatra and big band era music. I had some already picked, but I needed some more. I think I have what I’m looking for with 14 songs, but I want one more to make it 15. If you all know me I have this think about the number 6 and that’s why I need one more song, weird I know. I know I want the video to end with “My Way” by Frank Sinatra because my grandpa really did it his way especially these last few months.
My aunt told my mom yesterday that they are allowed up to 75 people, but we’re not doing that. I think it will my mom, her two sisters and their husbands, me, my four cousins, and that might be it. Oh we have the pallbearers and those are great-grandkids, so six more. I’m only going to hug my aunt and uncle and no one else. There are too many of them going out to party and to work that I’m not risking it or my mom. I have to order some flowers from me and Scooter because he was my grandpa’s buddy.
Speaking of Scooter, he still seems sad. It’s not all the time, but he is definitely quieter. He’s been very clingy to my mom, climbing up in her lap and just curling up. He normally will sit right by her, but now he’s all up in her lap. I think he senses she needs him.
Emotionally, I’m just spent right now. I can’t think straight because there’s so much going on and once again we’re cramming it all together in a week. The good thing is there’s no reception and we don’t have to come up with food and all that. I think after the burial we’re just going to pick something up and go home. I hate leaving Scooter at home by himself that long, but he’s a trooper and will probably just sleep because that is the one thing he loves doing all the time.
I’m not posting the coffee bar until next month because I’m just going to take down the Christmas and put up Valentine’s Day look for it.
Be safe and well! Lots of hugs and loves to you all!!!