Emotional Week for me, don't know why it's hittin me so hard.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
I am very emotional this week. All these thing going through my head. I haven't been eating crazy, I haven't been eating at all which makes me too tired to workout!
I need prayer. My dughter is away at school, I am so proud of her. I miss her in my house. I really do.
My older sister is heavy on my mind. Pam is a beautiful peron in & out. 4 years ago at the age of 36 she had a massive heart attack . She went 8 minutes w/o oxygen to her brain, therefore she has brain damage. My beautiful funny sister mother of 2 beautiful boys can not eat, walk, talk, when I bathe her & comb her hair I talk t o her & joke around but she says nothing. Her husband took care of her from the day it happen, but in April he found out he had colon cancer & died in May. They lived in GA we live in KY. We went and got my sister. Their kids 8 & 11 are living in GA with there older sister from a previous relationship of her daddys. They visit, but it's not the same. Pam was/is an excellent mother, she did anything for her kids, made pancakes from scratch before school, worked out of her home when she felt like the daycare situation was not good enough so she opened daycare in her home. I feel like since the kids were 4 & 7 when i happened to my sister they will never know how good of a mama they have. It breaks my heart. I love my sister, I miss her. She always made up laugh & smile. And when I needed advice on something she always made me think. I miss that.