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Thinking the difficult thoughts...
Wednesday, October 09, 2013      13 comments

and remembering the hard times. I was in a very bad car accident when I was nearly 6. I spent my sixth birthday in the hospital fighting to live. I nearly did not make it here to this point in my life. Tonight I am copying a trun... Read more
Dream with consequences.
Monday, September 30, 2013      4 comments

I am headed off to bed to dream. When I thought of that just now I wondered what my dream is. What it is exactly that I want to be. Why am I taking such a long time to reach my weight goal. Why do I make progress and then run back towards th... Read more
thinking out loud
Thursday, September 19, 2013      9 comments

I have asked myself many times if I believe that goal is possible. I have hoped, I have prayed, I have worked, I have pondered and I have worked some more, in the end I seem to be filled with doubt. I am not sure if I have ever believed that I... Read more
Rewriting my goals to only contain positive thoughts.
Monday, September 16, 2013      9 comments

So I am still stressing. I want a different outcome. I am sick of what feels like going around in circles. I am stressed because my husbands paycheck was awful. I am blessed because I have a house to live in and food to eat. Even if i... Read more
Just sayin' to myself
Monday, September 16, 2013      5 comments

Well I have been sick this week. I did not start my goals as planned. Tonight I have been listening to my kids and pondering exactly what I want to do. I have just less than a month to my birthday. If I follow a plan I have some habits built... Read more
Happy there is not reset button.
Friday, September 06, 2013      5 comments

This summer was a difficult one. I know some of the reasons and I think I over estimate the difficulty. There were mothering worries and money worries and personal worries ect., ect., ect. You get the picture. So I was thinking about v... Read more
Sad
Monday, August 26, 2013      13 comments

I had big plans for this summer and life got in the way. Now I am a week away from school starting and I am feeling either sad or depressed. I am not sure which. So time to review and recommit to my goals. So I looked at my goals and I... Read more
Staying committed.
Saturday, August 24, 2013      6 comments

I am just really struggling with the fact that I have not already completed this journey. It is time to get and stay serious about this journey.... Read more
Remembering Why and How
Thursday, August 08, 2013      4 comments

On this journey there seem to be 3 very important things. First is why, second is how and if those are not motivational enough there is the "Just do it" Why: 1. I want good blood sugar control. 2. I want to feel better about my body. ... Read more
Remembering Why and How
Thursday, August 08, 2013      2 comments

On this journey there seem to be 3 very important things. First is why, second is how and if those are not motivational enough there is the "Just do it" Why: 1. I want good blood sugar control. 2. I want to feel better about my body. ... Read more
Eye on the prize.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013      10 comments

Someday...Someday...Someday, I will be thinner. Someday I will be fitter. Someday I will be where I want to go. I have been struggling to gain traction. I have been struggling to keep going. I start and stop and start again. I whine an... Read more
Fear is False Evidence Appearing Real
Monday, July 15, 2013      8 comments

A friend of mine heard this in a church talk Sunday. I love the idea. Think about it, most of the things that we fear never come to pass. We worry for nothing. On this journey to a fitter body I have felt fear. Most of the time it is ... Read more
Give credit
Sunday, July 14, 2013      7 comments

I am working through the book "Beck diet solution." www.beckdietsolution.com
/daily-diet-solutions/ This last week I had lots of things come up that I was not expecting so I did not get my daily reading in. I recommit... Read more
New Choices
Friday, June 28, 2013      6 comments

Yesterday for dinner I ate 3 bowls of fake Captain Crunch. Yeah that is not good food. I had a headache. I wanted to get rid of it. So I ate the sugar cereal. Then my stomach did not feel good. Duh. . . I know that is not good for me. ... Read more
Continuing on...The next steps
Friday, June 21, 2013      9 comments

Yesterday I recommitted to this journey to be a smaller healthier person. Yesterday was my 27th wedding anniversary. So my dream is to be able to wear my wedding dress for my 28th. Wouldn't that be awesome. At 2 pounds a week I should be ver... Read more

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