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Monday, June 02, 2008

Ok..this is my first blog and I needed to do this just to get some things off my chest. I am frustrated with many things in my life right now and not sure where to go from here.

My weight loss is at a standstill. That is my fault. I haven't been eating right, haven't been exercising, haven't been drinking my water. I have done better over the past few days but I still need to improve. My frustration comes because I know I need to do this for my health and for my kids but it seems to all go out the window when things get tough.

Another source of frustration is my husband--or at the moment, lack of one. We are now more roommates than anything else. We almost divorced back in August and now I'm almost wishing we had gone through with it for more than one reason. But that is another blog in itself.

My ex is my final source of frustration. My kids stay with him every other week. When I picked up my daughter this past weekend she was sitting on the porch crying. Her step-mom had humiliated her in front of her friends and she was right to be upset. But there is nothing I can do about it.

I think my frustration is holding me back sometimes but I am trying to get a handle on it. Let's hope I can break through this and continue on my healthy journy.
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    I know this blog was written 4 months ago so hopefully things have gotten somewhat better for you. It is easy to feel frustrated. When that happens to me, I try to break things down into smaller steps otherwise I get overwhelmed and end up spinning my wheels. One thing that registered with me when I first started was "shorter workouts build consistency." In other words, just do 15 minutes. That will seem easy and do able and you won't feel overwhelmed but yet get a good sense of accomplishment that you did SOMETHING! I have started to apply this to other areas of my life too...breaking overwhelming tasks into smaller baby steps.

    As far as other people go, you can't really control what they do and say. The most you can do is try to improve on yourself and let that be your focus. Getting healthy and setting an example for your kids is a great gift to give both them and you. Focus on your self for awhile and you may be surprised at how the other stuff will fall into place. It may not seem like the place it falls is for the better sometimes but things do have a way of working themselves out. Just take care of YOU right now!

    Oh, and keep on blogging! You'll be amazed at how often ideas and inspiration come to you when you blog. Plus something you say may just inspire someone else...or something they post may inspire you in return!

    4675 days ago
    I am so glad I stopped by your page and read this. We are here for you when you need support, Vent here because it really does help to get it off your chest. Blessings and good wishes heading out to OK emoticon
    4784 days ago
    I hope things are going better for you. I know we all go through ups and downs, but I hope your ups are on the way. I'm thinking about you and praying for you.
    4786 days ago
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    Hang in there!
    I know you have it in you to keep on your journey. One thing about staying on track is that it is the one thing you can control and you will feel better if you continue on your health journey. I hope things are getting better. You can do it! I'll rootin' for ya!

    4800 days ago
    Hope things have improved over the last couple of days.

    I hear ya on the weight loss. It takes a lot of time and determination to put the whole healthy lifestyle process as a priority. In a world where convenience and fast are priority it doesn't mesh easily. I've seen you do great at this so you know it can be done! Remember it is all a slow transformation and life still goes on while we are working on it so there will be times it has to be put on the back burner for awhile. I think one key is to keep the new habits you've mastered going and not forget to get back on track as soon as possible.

    You know I'm not one to give advice, we've been on the same boat! I think they threw out two life savers... I got one, you get the other!

    I wish I had sound advice for you about your marriage. I agree that every marriage has it's ups and downs. I always think about how I vowed to stick with it thru good and bad when I feel like I've reached my wits end. Unless there is abuse or cheating going on I would encourage you to hang in there and pray for divine intervention.

    I would encourage your daughter to open up to her step mom about her feelings. I know it's not always easy to be supportive of an ex or his choice of a new partner but it is always good for the kids if the adults try to work together for their good. It is good for kids to learn the skills to deal with conflict and not keep it locked up. It the step mom is too much of a boob to say hey I'm sorry at least your daughter was the bigger person for trying to work it out. Again, pray for divine intervention!

    Enough advice, just know that I'm thinking of you!
    4804 days ago
    Keep trying and don't give up.
    Things will work out.
    I'll be praying for you.
    Hugs, Alice
    4807 days ago
    Your weigh you can control and only you. We all have been there and we have to fight thru it, hence is why we are here. When you need that extra support come to SP and chat about it tell us that's what we are here for. As for the hubby, there's not much I can tell you. We all love them one day and hate them the next. You need to make a decision that's best for you. As for the step mom, you are a better woman than me because I would have showed my monkey a$$. Can you talk to your ex about what happened? Explain to him how your daughter felt. He should be a man and handle it.

    Good luck breaking thru all this, just remember that that doesn't kill us makes us stronger! And if your doing the challenges from Mr. D you'll be sexier too!!!
    4807 days ago
    Hugs from me too...I've never been where you are, and it sounds real crappy...but keep your chin up, you're doing SP for yourself - don't give up on you. Having a strong mom is what kids will see in the end.

    Keep the faith sweetie - I hope things get better.
    See you on the thread!
    4807 days ago

    sounds like you could use a hug!! let your ex's be a source of frustration, kick some butt, and look good to get back at them! show them that you can be great without them! you can do it! i wish i had some words of wisdom about your exhusband. mine is halfway across the country, so i only have to deal with him visiting my daughter once a year. hope this helps!
    4807 days ago
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