Monday, June 02, 2008
Ok..this is my first blog and I needed to do this just to get some things off my chest. I am frustrated with many things in my life right now and not sure where to go from here.
My weight loss is at a standstill. That is my fault. I haven't been eating right, haven't been exercising, haven't been drinking my water. I have done better over the past few days but I still need to improve. My frustration comes because I know I need to do this for my health and for my kids but it seems to all go out the window when things get tough.
Another source of frustration is my husband--or at the moment, lack of one. We are now more roommates than anything else. We almost divorced back in August and now I'm almost wishing we had gone through with it for more than one reason. But that is another blog in itself.
My ex is my final source of frustration. My kids stay with him every other week. When I picked up my daughter this past weekend she was sitting on the porch crying. Her step-mom had humiliated her in front of her friends and she was right to be upset. But there is nothing I can do about it.
I think my frustration is holding me back sometimes but I am trying to get a handle on it. Let's hope I can break through this and continue on my healthy journy.