A reward and This journey is different
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
I had another reward the other day at the gym. They measured me for body fat using calipers and by their measurements I am now OVERWEIGHT. That is so exciting for me. I was even pleased that DH understood (he is a skinny clueless guy usually) why being OVERWEIGHT is a good thing. It is so much better than morbidly obese. Once the scale starts moving downwards again, my weight will be where the insurance companies believe this change. It really does feel good to be making major positive changes in my health.
I went for the RMR measurements (when I woke up, before eating, I rested at a machine and then breathed into a mask that went in to a machine that measures CO2 production) to see my recent plateau was due to needing more calories. The woman who did the measurements (she owns the gym I go to and is my personal trainer and she is a nutritionist) said my calories should at 1300 per day. My target range has been 1200 to 1400 a day so that will not change. My coach said eating more lean protein would help me lose weight because of the thermogenic property of protein metabolism. I track the protein but it is hard for me to get it above 100. She then decided to produce a 1300 calorie exchange diet for me to follow.
I rejected that program. I am not on another diet. Each day I make meal time choices based on my hunger and I make sure that what I eat has health benefits for me. I log my food and make sure I stay in my calorie range. I make sure I choose from whole foods - as unprocessed as possible.I look at my nutrient levels and I make adjustments to help me get enough of those too. I tend to be unstructured in my approach to life and not likely to be successful with something that requires a lot of planning and regimentation. My coach would not listen to me when I told her I could not follow an exchange program. In the past I would stop what I was doing and having success at, try what she wanted me to do , fail and then end up gaining weight and not being able to restart my previous program. I was angry, frustrated and fearful - angry and frustrated because she was not listening to me at all and fearful that if I don't do what she says the scale won't move downwards again. Luckily I had the support of team mates who pointed out the success I have had (duh - sometimes I forget the obvious). This time is different. I am responsible for my health. I have control over what dietary path I choose. I have 41 years of experience with dieting. I know what works and does not work for me. I have heard insanity defined as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. I am doing things differently now:
I am in control of my health.
I take responsibilty for my health and for my nutrition and exercise.
I have the support of a great community when I get frustrated or lost.
I am learning to eat in response to hunger.