Bi-Polar depression, Anxiety--Fear
Friday, August 01, 2008
Friends, I know what you are going through. I've been there. And I know how tiring it can get. I have experienced the sadness, the fear, the sorrow...the darkness. I know what it is like to want to isolate myself and be alone with this illness. It is a lonely, dark and fearful ailment. I understand your struggles, your battle...your torment within....the anxiety, the panic and the repetitive thoughts of hopelessness. I realize the powerlessness, the guilt, the shame.....the pain of it all. Still, even now at times, it tries to creep its way in. But do you want to know what I do?
I sit in the Presence of God. I play some deep praise and worship music that speaks to my heart and what I am feeling. I allow those words to become my words. I quite myself before God. I make time for Him by being alone, undistracted and still before Him. Doing nothing....but praying, listening, crying, and possibly throwing a tantrum.
Get in touch with your feelings. They are an indicator of what you believe. And if what you are feeling is anxiety, fear, panic....there is a lie that you are agreeing with. Be open and honost before God. Naked and exposed. Transparent and humble. Tell Him if you are angry. Tell Him the frustration, the battle, your weakness....your pain. Lay it all down at His feet. Then put on the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.
Do I want to do this when I am feeling blue? Of course not. But I do it anyway! We cannot ignore our feelings. We should not bury them or deny them either. Neither should we deal with them later! But we can release them to God.
Again, I too battled depression; bi-polar to be exact for 10 long years. But God in His mercy, His love, His grace....His power healed and delivered me and set me free!!
My friends, I believe with all my heart, that God is willing and able to help you. Each of us needs to hear from God ourselves--a personal scripture from Him that will give us the faith, the strength, the patience, endurance and perserverence to press in to Him--to touch the hem of His garment! The woman who had an issue of blood for twelve years approached Jesus, desperate to grab ahold of Him. She determined to push through the crowds, crawling on her hands and knees. What she actually touched, was the fringes of his garment and thereby she was touching God's Word and God's Name according to the Jewish culture and commandment of God (Numbers 15:38-39). The fringe symbolizes Jesus Himself: who is the Word of God (alive and powerful) and the Name of God. And today, you can reach out and touch Jesus, and receive a healing just as the woman with the issue of blood!
Pursue Jesus. Push through your pain. Be relentless just like Jacob. Jacob wrestled with the Lord and said that he wasn’t going to let go until the Lord blessed him!! I believe that God wants us to know and find out just how badly we want to be free!
Don't tolerate it. Don't manage it. Don't entertain it. Don't live with it! And don't call it yours! It does not belong to you. Our words that we speak either speak life or death over us. God created the heavens and the earth by the words of His mouth. We are created in His image, given authority to speak with power over our words and to create! Life and death are in the power of our tongue. Ask and Allow a heavenly, holy anger to rise within you against depression, against worry, against fear and against anxiety!
Today, everyone is following “the secret.” Why? Because it works BUT man is taking credit first of all for thinking he figured it out, and secondly because man believes he is one with God and can become a god to create his destiny. THough we can create (in part) our destiny with the words of our mouths, the truth is that it was God’s plan, God’s ways and God’s spiritual laws of sowing and reaping. And as a child of God, why would I want to agree with this book called the secret when it is not a secret at all!! The enemy is deceiving God’s children by whispering in their ears, “It’s ok to read and follow this book because what is being taught lines up with the word!”
Yes, God wrote it in His word a long time ago so instead of talking about the secret, boast about the word! I don’t want to follow Satan’s distorted imagry of what was written by God! NO WAY! I will follow God’s word for His word declares this truth! Do I sound angry? I AM. I get frustrated that Satan is getting so much glory and so much credit. I get angry because God’s children are being decieved and they don’t even realize it. Anyway, this is not the reason for writing this blog, so I will get back to my point.
You can do this. You can overcome all of these negative emotions by the words of your mouth in faith, by a determination to not give up, by a desperate desire to fight this good fight of faith and by the healing and deliverance power of our God. What a beautiful partnership we have with our Lord!
As I was on my walk today, the Lord said this, “fear doesn’t have any power unless it is given your actions. Otherwise, it is just a thought.!!??” And He is right! Of course He is right! Fear begins as a thought. And if I believe that thought, then my body aligns itself with that lie and believes it as truth.
Friends, we have been given the mind of Christ and a spirit of power, love and a sound mind! We have been given the ability to control, stop and rebuke our thoughts! I remember when my mind was being tormented and I believed that I was helpless and that depression, fear and anxiety were just a part of who I was. THat was a lie straight from the pit. I had to fight this. The depression, God supernaturally delivered me instantly, but fear, worry and anxiety--I had to battle. I thought I was going crazy. But God showed me that His word is a weapon to fight off the lies that the enemy wants us to believe as truths. But unless I knew what the word said, how could I fight? I had to search the word for the opposite of what I believed to be true. We will know the truth and the truth will set us free!
IN TWO HIM.....SEE
He is Jehovah Rophe; Your Healer (Exodus 15:26).
He longs to be intimate with you.
He desires to send His word to you personally, and heal you.
Ask Him to send you a personal healing scripture that He desires for you;
"He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength...But to those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint." (Isa 40:29, 31)
Sit with Him today, and ask Him to guide you to that Rhema Word that will develop within you and give you the faith to believe, trust, and expect your healing! Sit, listen, wait...... Wait for Him.