Still Struggling

Sunday, January 04, 2009

After 3 weeks of dieting and of exercising, I lost 11 pounds already. I know it still doesn't show as no one notices it yet but I wanted to share this to you people who keep on motivating me to do well. My initial weight was 210 lbs. I was so devastated just before Christmas when I stepped on the scale. I couldn't wear any of my old clothes and no matter what I wore I just didn't feel good inside. Add insult to injury was my boyfriend and his friends...hearing them say things like "maybe you'd look attractive if you lost weight" and hearing my boyfriend saying "maybe if you had a sexy body I might get jealous once in a while, that would give me competition" really stings. That's why I envy those people out there who have partners that can love them just the way they are. I encounter spark people pages here and when I read them and see how they get support from their partners I really feel happy about that and somehow pray that I could feel the same.
My weightloss journey is not only for health and for getting my life back, It's like showing mean people and the people who said I couldn't do it that they were mistaken and that I will always be the same girl inside and out.
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    i think it is awesome you have lost 11 lbs. dont worry about it not showing. honestly, i lost about 50 lbs before ANYONE, including the boyfriend, noticed. and then, it was because I pointed it out.

    i am sorry you heard awful things like that. i have a lot more to say on that, but i wont. it has got to be TERRIBLE to hear your boyfriend make comments like that.
    i cant even imagine that. and i am sorry for you.

    its one of those things, you know. i know the boyfriend loved me at 300 lbs. i know he was attracted to me. but i also know he would want me to be thinner. because of health, because a thin person is more attractive.
    but at the same time, i mean, i overlook things i dont necessarily adore about him. its what you do when you are in a relationship. unless you really really cant abide something, in which case you need to get out.
    relationships are give and take, richer/poorer better/worse 300 lbs/200 lbs/100 lbs.

    i hope you find yourself again and your life. you deserve that much.
    4506 days ago
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