Highs & Lows
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Friday night we went to visit some friends. She & I taught together, except she was rehired this year & I wasn't. It was the first time we'd been together & I felt awkward. She asked if I'd found a job & I told her that I filed for unemployment this week. Later on she said, "I'm leaving with Ray to go to San Francisco on Sunday." That bothered me because I had talked to him about going with them to a conference there before I got canned. I'm sure she didn't mean to upset me, but the whole thing makes me feel like a failure.
Forward to Saturday. We went to visit other friends & they invited us to go to Key West for Labor Day week, Saturday-Saturday. She has a time share on the beach. I'm like, "Well, I'm not working & I've never been there." So she booked our flights & we're doing it.
Doesn't everyone go on vacation when they lose their jobs?
My point is, I have a real goal in sight for losing weight. Seven weeks isn't a lot, but I'm working on a plan that will get me farther along than I've gotten so far. Maybe visualizing myself on the beach helps. It's a real goal that I can hold in my mind if I start to make bad choices.
What better place to meditate & get your head together than a beautiful beach? I can't wait!