Dad... It just wasn't time to leave this earth just yet.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Whew.... 22 hours in the car.... was just over the top... I did manage to read a good book on the way back, I usually get carsick but for some reason this time I did not, guess maybe my body just needed the ESCAPE???
It was wonderful getting to see my Dad. He is not in the greatest shape, he looks pale kinda grey, and he is not eating very well, or should I say not drinking. The food they are giving him is pureed and looks and smells gross. When we were there I put a straw in his Insure and made him drink it and eat some jello with some whipped topping. I worry that the Hospital staff is not making sure that he at least drinks the Insure.
He is doing a little better, but seeing him I could tell that the heart attack and the stroke has almost just done him in. He starts to say one thing and ends up on another. My Mom and sister went to visit him last Thursday and he remembered my Mom being there but not my sister.(?!?) He has a lot of memory loss, but we were able to bring up old times and he seemed to remember those. I was able to retrieve his glasses, he had not had those for over a week, they were at the Rehab facility that he was at in between Hospital stays. He told me that he could finally see the TV. He kept scratching his head and I asked him if he would like for me to was his hair, so I did that, they had some shampoo that did not need to be rinsed out. I got a warm wash cloth and wipe his hair so it was damp then put the foam shampoo on it. I gave him a good massage on his scalp, (Noticed that his hair is really thinning, he has always had really thick hair) then got another warm wash cloth and wiped him down to get most of the shampoo out. Then washed his face, neck and ears, he said it felt so good. It is a memory I will never forget. A parent wash's a child when they are little, but, how often does that child get to return the favor.
When we left I told him that I loved him and he was the best Dad in the whole world. I then told him that I was sorry that he had to live in pain for almost half of his life and I would be happy for him to no longer be in pain. I said., " Dad, if you want to leave this world to God's loving wings, GO, I will see you in heaven." He cried like a baby, and of course I did too!
He will be at the hospital for a few more days and then he will be moved to a Hospice type of facility. I really don't know if I will ever see him on earth again, but I do know that we will meet again in Heaven where he will no longer be in pain ! Devoting two days to driving both ways for this visit was worth the small amount of time that we got to spend with him.
I want to Thank all of my Spark Friends for being there for me and praying for my Dad and my Family. Being a member of Spark has given me some really great supportive people that I know I can always count on for Love, Motivation and Support. I really don't know what I would have done without all of your Prayers and Support. LOL to all of you!! ~ Janel :)