Feeling very discouraged
Monday, August 17, 2009
I just need some encouraging words.. It is a long story--But i have or had these 2 online friends from England who were planning to get wed next yr and they have a 1 1/2 yr old boy--They had split up 2 yrs ago--due to her cheating and i helped get them back together--cause i thought they were meant for each other--Then no sooner were they back together SHE got pregnant!! I was so happy for them that they were together not married tho--and they had a baby coming--but they were planning their wedding just a few weeks ago and SHE up an leaves him once again--like 2 yrs ago--this time tho they have a kid and she took him--and the boyfriend had not idea what was going on--Then she is bragging on Facebook and such that she is involved with another guy--this is just about a week later or so!!!
I always prayed for them and treated them like family--
But now she has lashed out at me and called me a busy
body--caused i saw that HIS heart was broken because of what she did--and i asked what happened and is there anything i could do and that i was praying for them--Well they do not know God and she wrote me several messages that attacked me as a Christian and a caring person-- I am so depressed cause i would never do anything to hurt a fly.. I was just trying to help them--so they both want nothing to do with me and took me off of their friends lists.. And She is blaming me for all that is going down--I did not do anything --but try to help them as they are only in their 20S and they always asked me for advice and now She says that the both of them never liked me and felt like i was a phony Christian & friend..Now that really hurt as that is a lie--I was just trying to be a god Chritian and pray for them and see what i can do to help--cause i loved them like one of my family..
But the girl definitely has a srew loose--she is in the Britiish army and was in Iraq and Germany and she has hurt her boyfirend several times--
No sooner then she left her fiance--she had it all over her blogs and such that she was dating this other guy--
Now i am trying to cope with feeling like a bad person-- and bad Christian--I keep praying and reading Gods Word about persecution of us Christians to help me cope--But i suffer from Depression and Anxiety and this is making me scared that i will sink into a bad depression--and now i do not want to get involved in others lives and feel like just staying quiet about things and I know that GOD wants me to help and encourage others..
I got stuck in the middle of these 2 people --who are out of my life now--I tried my best with them and they see me as a meddler--what can ya do--But i am so sentimental that this hurts me so to think people think i am not a good CHristian or person--I just do not understnad why people want to blame troubles they have caused on others..
But now that said--I do need prayer for me to forget about this incident and except persecution from non Godly people and some even Godly people--who do not understand the difference between a Godly heart and a cold heart.
I am so hurt--very deeply.. Plz pray and believe me when i say that i did nothing wrong to be treated like this..
God Bless and thanks for your prayers as my health cannot handle this..
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PS_ NOW IF I WAS A BAD PERSON --WHY WOULD I BEEN ELECTED ON SATUR AND BEFORE ALSO AS A SPARK MOTIVATOR!!
I TRY SO HARD TO HELP OTHERS..