The Object I Face
Thursday, August 27, 2009
I was told that I was over thinking it. I received a questionnaire from the program coordinator at school. It was kind of an ‘about me’ form and it covered things like first term goals, first year goals and career goals. The very last item threw me and I had to wrestle with it for a while to come up with an answer I could live with. It was one of those; ‘complete this sentence’ things and it took me a couple hours to decide what they were asking.
The statement was, ‘If I knew I couldn’t fail, I would…’. I think what really got me flustered, was that I read ‘fear’ in that statement. And y’all know, I aintskeerd of just about…nuthin’! But I think most people fear things that they might fail at doing. When I actually decided on my ‘final answer’, it included a qualifier.
Now that I read it back, it sounds more like a mission statement. So here’s what I said: If I knew I couldn’t fail, I would…establish my own lifestyle coaching business, catering to overweight individuals who want to improve their lives with solid nutrition, exercise and a positive mental attitude.
However, the object I face is not fear of failure, it’s formal training and investment capital. That is why I have enrolled in this program.
Adding the qualifier made me feel better but they’ll probably think I’m a nutcase for adding it in. Oh, well, I’ll cater to other crazy people.
So when the dogs woke me in the middle of the night to potty, I had a bit of trouble falling back to sleep. I guess Kristy was right about overthinking things, ‘cause my mind was racing with ‘what if’s’ for a while. But I reminded myself of the silliness of it all, and pointed out to my healthy self, that I was being robbed of valuable sleep. I don’t remember anything after that.
I woke up with new focus to get back on track hard and fast. I am only one month away from the start of school. The program is pretty aggressive; I even had to sign a contract that outlines expectations as if it were already my job. I guess it’s really happening, as I sign up for classes next Tuesday. That’s when I apply for approval from UI to continue my benefits while in school. I meet all the criteria and am in an approved degree program so there should be no problems at all. Just the same, it is the last hurdle to make my student status official and I’m looking forward to that.