September is not going to be about what I PLAN to do, but what I ACTUALLY do.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

I'm always posting my plans, detailing what I intend to do, how I'll get it done, yada, yada. What I actually get done adds up to less than half the plan, leaving me feeling disappointed in myself.

I feel fat, useless, powerless, helpless; not to the level I did before finding SP, but headed in that direction. This is the first time since joining the site that I've been this emotionally low. I know I'll snap out of it very soon. I know my job stress and long hours are playing a role in this and I need to get some real rest.

I want the new Lynn back. I want to be proud of myself again. I liked that and I'm going to get it back!

So this is the mind game I'll play with myself: I will not post any plans for Sept, I will only post my actual accomplishments. Hopefully, this will take my focus off of what I "failed" to do.

Ironically, this is my September plan.
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    I am right there with you Lynn!
    4312 days ago
    Hi Lynn...I know how you feel cuz I was there a few days ago. May I make a suggestion? If you're like me you set the bar WAY too high for yourself. I went back and looked at the amount of exercise I was doing which balanced out to about an hour to an hour and 15 minutes a day. I looked at the calories I was burning(which was about 400 an hour) so I re adjusted my goals to something I know I can achieve- 6 hours of exercise a week and 3000 calories burned per week. Yeah my food allowance decreased from 1800 to 1500 a day- but at least I have a feasible PLAN to follow. Cuz when you set the bar so high you put yourself in a position as you said of "never winning" and only "getting half of it done" ...change your sept goal to something you CAN do(like HALF of what you were attempting) then be PROUD of doing what you set out to do...and getting out there on a regular basis...that way your glass can always be half full...not half empty ya know? Set yourself up to be a winner...not to be dissapointed with what you DO accomplish. GF- you've lost 60 pounds!!!!..if that's doing "half" of what your goals are...then HALF is working for you! Get up there and say "THAT'S RIGHT! I LOST 60 POUNDS" not "well I was shooting for 120 pounds and only lost 60" See the difference? wink! You have so much to be proud of! heck I'm Proud of you! When I lose 60 pounds I'll probably be unbearable posting skinny pictures of myself everywhere like I'm some hawt mamma! LOL So...go on wit yo bad self that's 60 pounds lighter! WHOOOOOHOOOOOO!

    Your spark buddy!
    4313 days ago
  • TJACK4011
    I like it too! I wish you the best. You have inspired. emoticon
    4315 days ago
    Lynn, you will suceed!! I know the feeling. Sometimes I wonder if I can make it. I too have days when the depression sets in but you will make it to the top again. I have faith that we can do this. YOU ARE WORTH IT MY FRIEND. emoticon emoticon
    4315 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1508102
    Hi Lynn,
    You have to do what you have to do to get where you want to go! Huh? lol What I mean is you are doing what's best for you! I know you will get back on track soon. I'm sorry you are feeling low. I felt that way myself for a few days but your words along with others help me snap out of it. I'm praying for you to have a blessed September! Take care! emoticon
    4315 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/30/2009 8:21:40 AM
    That is a great way to think about your goals and motivate yourself! Keep a positive attitude and catch up on your rest because that is the most important thing. I'm here if you need me. I will help in any way that I can.
    4316 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2095157
    I believe Sept. will be great for you!
    4316 days ago
    Hey Pardner - plans are good but then, they are just that - plans.... You're doing the right thing, focus in what you are actually doing, I'm sure after seeing what you've done at the end of the day you'd feel accomplished. Go for it, you can do it. One day at a time, one step at a time, just do it!

    Keep going Lynn! Make September your best workout month ever!!

    I'll be watching you girl....

    4316 days ago
    oh gosh i love this idea.. then come back in and be accountable for what you actually did? I like it!
    4316 days ago
    Sounds like a great plan to me and I am sure you will do more than you think. I'll be watching.... emoticon
    4316 days ago
  • SLCB1023
    Maybe you just need to scale back your plans a bit. Sometimes other things like life and work get in the way of meeting our mind's eye plans. So just pick one thing a day that you want to accomplish. Make it small and simple enough that you can meet that goal. Just build on those positive goals met and you will be on the road to achieving big things again. emoticon emoticon Just believe in yourself 'cause you are worth it.
    4316 days ago
    The New Lynn isn't gone--your ARE here, you only need the patience it takes to re-member yourself. It's all part of the process, right? We fall down, we get back up; in the end, we ALWAYS win, because that's how it works. Take your time, breathe, execute, and trust that the Universe has your back NO. MATTER. WHAT.

    You are not a fluke, Lynn--the old you is NO MORE! LIVE LIKE IT! :oD

    *hugs* we're going to get it this next month, NO QUESTION. emoticon
    4316 days ago
    Great Plan! I'll focus on the daily positives with you. The daily negatives don't need any extra energy from us. Today's positive: Being able to watch the Kennedy goings on without having to be in the crowds or the rain. emoticon emoticon
    4316 days ago
  • D710DANCE
    I feel like I need to copy and paste this blog on my page. For September let's not talk about it, let's be about it. I've got your back and I know that you have mine.
    4316 days ago
    That is such a great plan that I think I will do that also, I always have such a long list of To Do's - not only are you helping yourself but you just helped me!! It always feels good to help others, thanks.

    You can do this!!!!!!!!!
    4316 days ago
  • FITKAT2010
    You need someone to be accountable TO. Stating a plan is part of the journey to DO the plan. Realizing what stops you and overcoming the obstacles is actually the purpose of the plan and the payoff for achieving the plan.

    Do not do this alone! It's impossible. That is what SparkPeople is all about. Support, Accountability. working through your excuses.

    4316 days ago
    Great Plan.
    4316 days ago
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