Life has a purpose... what is your path?

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

When I saw this quote on Spark this morning I knew it was meant for me I have had my emotions all over the place in the last few months, but now I am at peace.

Many of my Spark friends have ask me about my Dad's condition recently so I will share this
blog for those who are interested,

My Dad was home for almost a week after being in and out of hospitals/care facilities for almost three months. He got to go home for about 6 days and was again airlifted back to the hospital with chest pains. He was admitted to ICU and tests were run finding out that his heart is beyond any further repair of any sort, his ticker is just plain worn out, he would not survive surgery of any kind. He has now signed a DNR and has been transferred back to the Care Facility to rest comfortably, or as comfortable as he can.

Dad has lived a good full life, I often think that if his diet were different when he was younger his heart probably would be in better shape now. This has been my renewed wake up call that I need to press a little harder to get this weigh off and establish a more scheduled exercise routine.

I want God's will to be done with my Dad, he has been in pain much of his adult life. He has had several back surgery's each time making his pain worse instead of better. He is a believer and has been born again, in fact when he was in his 40's he became a licensed minister. I know for a fact that he will go to Heaven. I am praying that his pain will end, whether that be in his worldly body or heavenly body.

I am at peace with knowing that my Dad will go to his maker a new creature and the pain and suffering will end. The hardest part in my mind is that I am in every sense of the word an only child, I have a severely retarded sibling, my sister has never walked, can only talk for the family to understand and does not understand what is going on. My parents have watched her since she was born, Dad always said that God gave her to them for a reason. I live in another state from my parents and my Mom wants to stay in her own home.

So, now maybe you can understand why the Spark quote for today spoke to me? Because, everything in life has a meaning. We were not placed on the path we are on by mistake. When we were placed on the path of life, we were then given forks in life to chose from and we chose the path we are currently traveling, its up to us to enhance that path to make it one we are happy to call our own and be at peace with our decision.

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  • JANICEB0414
    Hey Janel, Thank you for sharing your story. I am praying for you and your family. You are a very strong and loving person. I am glad that you are at peace with yourself and your relationship with your Dad. You have done all that you can do and now it is in God's hands. I can understand why your Mom wants to stay where she is. She will feel closer to your Dad in their home and be more at peace. We are all here for you.
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    you are blessed for sharing and we are blessed for reading this. thank you. emoticon
    4228 days ago
  • MAZZY0774
    I love this. Where do I find those quotes?

    4228 days ago
  • BIGDAD1211
    You and your Dad are in my prayers. Thank you for sharing his story with us. God's Wil be done in your Dad's life.
    In Jesus Name

    4229 days ago
  • HILARY26
    janel, im so sorry that your dad has been suffering. i will be praying for you and your whole family that God will intervene and give you the strenth you need to make it through this time. im so glad that you have found peace though, you are such a strong person and i am honored to know you! we are all here for you anytime. please keep us posted so that we can be here to encourage and support you. :) emoticon emoticon
    4229 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon for you Janel. I know that this has been very difficult for you and I thank you for sharing. I know that you had to search yourself to find the peace that you have now. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I love ya!
    4229 days ago
  • REGGIE2009
    Thank you for sharing this my friend. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon
    4229 days ago
    emoticon I'm sorry for the difficulties and pain in your family. Thank you for sharing with us. Praying for you to have wisdom in dealing with everything.
    4229 days ago
    emoticon This says more to me than you can ever imagine. Thanks.
    4229 days ago
    Wow, Janel. Thanks for sharing. You really opened up to us. That's a wonderful quote and it seems like the perfect mantra to get you through this hard time. It's great knowing where your father will be, and also find comfort to know that he will no longer have pain. I'm glad you are finally finding peace. I'm here for you girl, if you ever need me!
    4229 days ago
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