When I saw this quote on Spark this morning I knew it was meant for me I have had my emotions all over the place in the last few months, but now I am at peace.
Many of my Spark friends have ask me about my Dad's condition recently so I will share this
blog for those who are interested,
My Dad was home for almost a week after being in and out of hospitals/care facilities for almost three months. He got to go home for about 6 days and was again airlifted back to the hospital with chest pains. He was admitted to ICU and tests were run finding out that his heart is beyond any further repair of any sort, his ticker is just plain worn out, he would not survive surgery of any kind. He has now signed a DNR and has been transferred back to the Care Facility to rest comfortably, or as comfortable as he can.
Dad has lived a good full life, I often think that if his diet were different when he was younger his heart probably would be in better shape now. This has been my renewed wake up call that I need to press a little harder to get this weigh off and establish a more scheduled exercise routine.
I want God's will to be done with my Dad, he has been in pain much of his adult life. He has had several back surgery's each time making his pain worse instead of better. He is a believer and has been born again, in fact when he was in his 40's he became a licensed minister. I know for a fact that he will go to Heaven. I am praying that his pain will end, whether that be in his worldly body or heavenly body.
I am at peace with knowing that my Dad will go to his maker a new creature and the pain and suffering will end. The hardest part in my mind is that I am in every sense of the word an only child, I have a severely retarded sibling, my sister has never walked, can only talk for the family to understand and does not understand what is going on. My parents have watched her since she was born, Dad always said that God gave her to them for a reason. I live in another state from my parents and my Mom wants to stay in her own home.
So, now maybe you can understand why the Spark quote for today spoke to me? Because, everything in life has a meaning. We were not placed on the path we are on by mistake. When we were placed on the path of life, we were then given forks in life to chose from and we chose the path we are currently traveling, its up to us to enhance that path to make it one we are happy to call our own and be at peace with our decision.