Staying in the Present

Friday, February 26, 2010

Lately, I have been wallowing in self pity. My new job didn't work out & I can't draw unemployment. I don't know what to do- apply for teaching positions or look for something else. I still fret over losing the job I had. School librarian jobs are hard to find around here.
Being back in the classroom is not pleasant, That's why I got my Masters in Library & Information Science, to get out of the classroom.
I've never cared for the, "It could be worse" line.
But, the local paper has been covering a trial & the victim has gone through the most horrible thing that could happen to a mother. It is such a tragedy.
So many people deal with painful situations.
Reading about it makes me so aware of the things I take for granted.
My situation isn't what I had hoped, but it is shameful to feel sorry for myself when I have so many blessings.
My goal is to be in the present- stop dwelling on the past & fearing the future.

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    Yes other people have it worse off, but you have what you were given in life. You have to take care of yourself, and that includes peace and happiness in a career.

    My mum drilled it in to me that other people were worse off than me. At her church the vicar's daughter had one leg amputated below the knee as a toddler because the leg was just wrong.
    And a child was born with her heart plumbed the wrong way so she was having multiple major heart surgeries as a baby.
    They were far worse than me so I wasn't allowed to complain about my own troubles.
    I'm now 28 and a wheelchair user and only finally allowed myself to have the chair and stop the crippling pain of walking a few years ago, because there was always that voice in my head saying stop whining, other people are worse off than me.

    When I finally gave in and sought medical help I was diagnosed with a rare genetic condition and now have lots of medical help and support for it, and have found a wonderful community of people with the same condition where I get support.

    I had stopped asking for help when my doctors gave up trying to find out what was wrong when I was 18 simply because 'someone else is worse off'.

    Yes, other people are worse off, and it does help to remember that, and be thankful for what we have. But that mentality hurts us so much sometimes.

    You aren't them. You are you, and you have to cope with what life throws at you.

    Take care of yourself.

    Oh and on the work thing, could you teach for a little while to keep the money coming in, whilst you keep hunting for the job you really want to do?
    Just don't get into the trap of not looking for that job when you get a teaching job.
    Keep looking for the job you want to do that will make you happy.

    4171 days ago
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