Speaks a thousand words, doesn't it?
There is something terribly and horribly wrong with that picture - and it is not because it is upside down, 'cause it's not!
I ashamedly admitted to myself that I've failed over the past year and that I'm not fulfilling my obligations to my body. This comes after having to unzip my jeans by dinner last night as by then I could no longer tolerate the tightness of the material around my abdomen. My husband gave me a strange look and I just barked at him that I'm getting fat!!
So as of this morning my ticker has moved way back. I know I need to get back to at least doing some kind of exercise, but the excuses are just to many to mention. I definitely have to halt on the bread and other nonsense I've started eating to "curb" the stress and anxiety I have had of late.
Sounds soooo easy doesn't it? Yeah, right. It feels like I have no idea what I'm doing or have to do to make this right.
I've been sticking my head in the sand lately and coming back up for air at times, only to have a glimpse of myself, feeling frantic and then going back into the sand.
No one can help me, but myself.
I find my willpower non-existent, my determination has pulled a disappearing act on me too. But my appetite has certainly soared, not for amounts of food, but for tipes of food - all which is not good for the waistline.
How will I pull myself out of this hole I'm in? Will I be able to manage one step at a time?
I don't want to go back to my starting weight, I'd be devastated to end up there again!!
Hold me in your thoughts and prayers, please - I need to find a way out of this!!