Exorcise Those Demons... how I am going to do that!!
Friday, May 14, 2010
I get a newsletter from Jillian everyday of the week ... this was the one today!
What kind of emotional demons are lurking in your closet (or refrigerator)? Not sure? Well, it's time to find out, and to exorcise them once and for all. To succeed where you have failed, sometimes you have to take three steps back to take that first step forward. In terms of reaching your goal weight, "stepping back" means reviewing past and current self-defeating behaviors to identify where you got stuck, discouraged, or overwhelmed. ~ Jillian Michaels
This newsletter came to me at the right day of my journey...I have been stuck for sometime in my weight loss... pound by pound the scale is inching back up and I was getting concerned and a little anxious. I was starting to fail and lose my self-confidence in myself and my ability to get this weight off. So this morning I took three step back and re-evaluated my journey.
For starters I took a mental evaluation of my refrigerator. Since it is the day before payday... really not too much in there to evaluate. I have low fat cheese, (which hubby now actually prefers to regular cheese now), Ezekiel bread, low-fat cottage cheese, fat free milk, eggs, apples, fresh spinach, ground turkey, chicken, sugar free jell, broccoli.....so all of those look fine! And since I ate the last of the chocolate peanut butter ice cream just last night... that is out of the freezer as well. (OOPS... why was that ice cream there to begin with?!? Looks like I just might have come up with the demon in the refrigerator. Now... I know that ice cream is a red light food for me,,, which means it is my trigger and if I take just one bite it is all gone, guess that would be my self-defeating food there.
Now to take three step back and look at my plan for getting this weight off. I admit that I am a real professional yo-yo dieter... I have tried every plan out there... Weight Watcher's, Jenny Craig, Slimfast, Medifast, Low carb, Cabbage Soup, High fiber, just to name the ones I can think of. Every new book with a plan that sounds good I either own or have read. I've even tried to devise my own plan. All of which worked for a short time but eventually I would gain all of the lost weight back plus some. Where did I get stuck, discouraged or overwhelmed? In looking back I am a person who is gung ho at the start of every plan, and I start to get discouraged when the weight does not come off like I think it should and then when I weigh... there it is overwhelmed... because the scale would not go down quick enough or else because it would teeter back and forth for several days and then I would just give up.
Today... I have decided to make changes in my life with my relationship with food and my scale. I have decided that just writing this all out has made me realize that I need to write a journal of how I am feeling and no one else will read it but me. I am making myself accountable for ME. I am going to take pictures of my progress and measurements like I've tried in the past but not kept up. I am going to ask for help from my family and my Spark friends when I need it. I am going to start caring for myself more than I care for others. I am going to take my own advice that I so willingly give to others and apply it to my own life.
Last but not least I am not going to leave room in my life or my weight loss plan for those emotional demons. I will ask God for his help to help me conquer every obstacle that is holding me back in my journey. I am going to take one day at a time and make changes, and with God's help I will complete my journey !