Thanks for all the comments ladies...but i am not sure i even believe in God...?

Friday, May 14, 2010

i do feel incredibly blessed..and i was raised in a Christian home....
and i was taught to believe in God..and i guess i sort of do..... just not maybe 100% like the Christian God........

i don't want to offend anybody and i KNOW that God is a great comfort to some.......but i have had real struggles with God and what not in the past.....

i am thankful for what i have...but fear a God that would take it all away...like testing Job for example.......

i am no Job.....i would renounce him in a second to save my family....

i wouldn't be happy at the end with my new wife, kids, house, money, etc.........(insert husband for wife.....)

i want what i have now...no testing me just for fun or to prove to Satan that there is somebody faithful enough......

i am not that person...

anybody watch the totally awesome T.V. series Kings? i am kind of like David in that...miracles around me....but could they have been something else.....? luck or fate or Jack Benjamin (the prince) staying off death for me.......?

Kings....man..i miss that show......

it had something for the most religious to the complete non-believer.....

and i..i am somewhere in between......

hugs to all
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    Thanks for being real and honest. i do believe in God though I don't always understand His ways. I love that He lets us be open and honest about where we are. We believe in you (and I think God does too!) Thanks for this blog. :)
    4013 days ago
    We can believe in you and pray for you even if you don't believe. It's a way to let you know just how much we care. So although your in the middle on this, that's ok. We care about you no matter how you feel. Don't sweat the specifics, what's important is that you gain footing and become positive about what's on your plate. The bad stuff goes out in the trash and you keep what's real. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4013 days ago
    What an incredibly honest blog about just who you are in relation to your faith.
    Being thankful for your blessings is cool, wherever they come from, eh? Miracles (and blessings) can just BE without getting too concerned about who/what they come from.
    4013 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/14/2010 3:40:05 PM
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