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Balancing then and now.

Monday, June 07, 2010

Busy week last week. My 3rd son finished his eagle project, graduated from high school, church seminary class, turned 18 and had a small party. I was around for all of this, in the background mostly doing what I do best as a mom, I think it is called support. It is great to see all that he has done. To realize that a chapter of our lives together is closing and something new is opening. Exciting times.

I was thinking back to when I was 18. Who I thought I would be now, what I thought I wanted, what I got and who I am now.

I thought I wanted a career when I was in high school. I decided to stay home when I actually had children. That worked out better than I could ever have envisioned.

I wanted a large family. I never had a number. I realized sitting behind a mother in church yesterday that I am in fact content with the number of children that I have. It is OK that the next baby that is mine will be a grandchild. That was an awesome realization that I am OK with that. I cannot imagine. But, I am sure it is closer than I realize.

Yes, there is room for improvement with my children but, in general I am greatly blessed.

I wanted a degree. I still do but, I have have done a good job reading and learning. I continue to do that. I can wait until the right time to finish the formal schooling. Right now this falls on the lacking side of the balance sheet but I am content with that.

All in all I am so very blessed. I am not who I thought I would be. But who I am is good. That is hard to write. But, it is true. I would like to figure out how to put this journey into perspective. I know that is what we share here. But, I have to change what I think about myself and how I think about this journey.

I need to figure out how to put the whole thing on auto pilot and let it take care of itself. I have not figured how to do that. But, it will stop the negatives that run though my head and tell me I cannot do this.

I am happy that my eating is happening more at the table and more thought out. I am paying attention to what I am eating. The starting and when I am full. I am happy that I am learning to stop when I am full.

I am eating on a smaller plate. I like that. I have to pay attention to when I take more. I can take more if I want. But, I pause to ask myself if I am really hungry first.

My exercise is good. At least the cardio is. I would like to improve my weight training.

I am working on a checklist so I can make it more of a habit and less of a worry.
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  • TEDYBEAR2838
    What a great blog. Thanks for sharing all that stuff and giving us a chance to go back and think about our lives too.

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    4034 days ago
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    It's great to feel content and blessed with where you are in life and what you have.
    4035 days ago
  • WALKINGGRANDMA
    It sounds like you had a really great week. I love it when you find these insights into your life and find that you are happy overall. I love it when you are not defined by what you weigh.

    I love it that you are listening to your body and deciding if you are hungry and what you want. That book is great, isn't it?
    4035 days ago
  • AWALKINTHEWOODS
    "I am not who I thought I would be. But who I am is good."

    Maybe hard to write but insightful and brilliant. That is the perspective we all need! Thank you!
    4035 days ago
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