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Sunday, June 13, 2010

I have not blogged much recently. I have felt like a whiny baby in my head. I have had to argue with myself to get me to exercise in the morning, and eat well.

I have gotten myself out of bed most of the time to do it. I am going to see if I can get in some extra time now that school is out. It could be fun to see if I can get an extra 30 minutes in, ten minutes at a time before each meal. It sounds good. I will also see if I can get in some weight lifting with my sons. We have a good time except they remind me how much more weight they can lift. One son handed me a dumbbell with 26 ponds on it and then laughed when I could not lift it above my waist. It was kind of funny. I wonder if I could get strong enough to actually get that up higher.

Finally talked with the insulin nurse. I have to keep track of my blood sugar for 10 to 14 days. Then they will let me take a class and give me the insulin. I am scared. Not of needles but of gaining weight. I am working to track stuff and eat better. That should help. I have some good habits.

Despite my mood I am doing better. I usually eat from a small plate and at the table. I am really doing better thinking about IF I am actually hungry as I start to eat and continue to eat. My weight is going back down. I am 1/2 way to where I was when I stopped the byetta.

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    I feel whiny a lot lately also. Might be summeritis. Steps forward are steps forward. They aren't always the ones you want to take, but are maybe the ones you need to take.

    Insulin is great because it controls the sugars without as many side effects. You can do this. It does mean that you have to watch the sugars carefully, but you can eat a greater variety as it will be something you can adjust your insulin to.

    For most of us, this is a process of learning what works and what doesn't. When we follow a formula and are very strict, it works very well, but that isn't a great way to live. It is a little to rigid.
    4068 days ago
    Everybody has already said all the thoughts in my head!! Keep up the good work and soon that 26 pounds will be hefted over your head without blinking!! Your sons will be amazed!! Sounds like you have a plan and you are actually doing great! I think we all go through whiney times in our lives, but you are still moving forward and that is AWESOME!!
    4069 days ago
    Glad to see you're still here and working to get healthy, my friend. We'll get there.
    4069 days ago
    Keep going, you can do this. Sounds like you are motivating your children. It will be fun for you to show your son soon, that you can pick up that weight, you can laugh back.
    Heavenly Father is just a prayer away when we need that extra "help me get through this" Good luck
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    4069 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    Sounds like you are getting back on program. Don't worry about blogging, just keep writing, we'll read it. I always like hearing about how you are doing. Miss your not blogging. I am glad you are still sparking. We are here for you, emoticon emoticon

    I doubt that any of us have it ALL TOGETHER? That is why we are here. To help those who are struggling and encourage those who need it. It's a great way to get HEALTHY together.

    I have no doubt you can get where you can lift that 26 Pounds above the waist. I know I can't do that right now, but if I were strength training on a regular basis, I know I could eventually do it.

    4069 days ago
    Sometimes I feel like I am only doing bits and pieces of a whole puzzle and it is frustrating, hard to be motivated and feels hardly worth the effort. Doing only ten minutes of exercise or a dozen exercises seems at the time to be trivial. But don't believe it! It all adds up and these really are all pieces of a big picture. Do exactly as your told by your medical team and you will start to see progress. Keep up the exercises. Journal your blood sugars. Log your food. It will all come together and you will be saying "how exactly did that happen?". Sure, it is about readiness to change and those aha moments to really push you forward, but everything you are doing is taking baby steps in the right direction making those leaps to come much much easier. Hang in there! Oh, and I used to take 2 insulins 2x/day and it was not so bad. I hated the blood sugar testing way more. You do what you have to do. I no longer am on insulin, hurray! You never know what will happen in the future so don't worry about it now. Keep celebrating those tiny steps forward and let us know when something "clicks".
    4069 days ago
  • FITKAT2010
    Pardon me here, but what is at the heart of all of this? Fear? Pain? Grief? It seems as though you are circling the main issue. Just my thought.
    4069 days ago
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