To say I have had a tough week would be an understatement. However, I have found a way to cope and move through.
A really good friend suggested we do weight watchers new system together. I said sure thinking eh? The first week was different. I kept thinking I was eating way too much to lose weight. The second round of steroid shots was Monday. I only had 8 instead of 12 this time. But they hurt so bad. 5 days later I am still sporting very purple bruises on my back.
Work has been so different. In the three weeks since I have been gone, a lady in the office has thrown her weight around and gotten several things about my job changed. And no one is telling me what is different until I do it the old way and get told it is wrong.
My college daughter has came home sick and with a chip on her shoulder and then found out the football team got a bowl bid, so now she is in New Orleans with a whole bunch of college students for the week. (Can you say
And I changed my weigh in day and time. I went from Saturday morning first thing to Thursday night after work. It is just easier and a great group of ladies. So I was going into this thinking I weighed first thing in the morning before eating Saturday, had steroids, stressed, ate everything that wasn't nailed down, was too sore to exercise any at all, and I am weighing in at the end of the day.
I lost 4 pounds.
I counted all my points. Ate a lot of fruit. Gone thru two bunches of bananas, two bags of grapes, two bags of apples, and cranberries. I did my best to eat bananas instead of "junk" but c'mon here! I took the family to IHOP on Sunday! You can't have IHOP and lose weight. It must be against the rules somewhere. Isn't it? Where is my copy of the dieter's rule book?
Well I guess I need a revised copy.
I have been changing how I let the college age daughter talk to me and how I deal with the more difficult of my family members and their problems. I just don't sweat the small stuff and put down an ultimatum to the daughter. And I don't like ultimatums. And it is difficult to make a change.
I had let people bully me into thinking I was a bully so I would back down and had really let some people start walking all over me. I just didn't feel good enough to resist. But now I am done with that.
Not that I am going to be overbearing like they are, but I am going to stand up for me more and not be such a push over. If things matter to me, I am going to speak up more.
The one thing that gets me so pissed more than anything else is when the DD says, Oh you must be feeling bad today. You know this is no big deal.
I have learned to say, Just because you don't agree with me does not make me wrong.