Thursday, March 03, 2011
This last week and a half has been such a trial for me, it seems like two steps forward and ten steps back. Everything is so chaotic and up in the air I am not even sure how to deal with it all. I'm just pushing through all of this mess right now and trying to focus on the fact that my life won't always surround everything falling apart. My meals have been a combination of sleep deprived convenience or skipping them all together. I have still been walking or riding my bike daily but I haven't even taken the time to log anything in over a week.
I am trying hard not to get angry at the people closest to me for taking this away from me. I am trying not to be angry for letting them so easily get me off track. It almost feels like every time I take a moment that is a little selfish to make myself happy... everything crashes down around me. People stop helping... requesting more... pulling me in every direction.