My fire has begun to dwindle :(
Sunday, March 20, 2011
If you are anything like me, you probably dread weigh-in days. You can’t sleep the night before because you are analyzing your every workout and meal over the past week. You often find yourself saying “In retrospect that small cookie probably wasn’t something I should have eaten” or maybe “I was as sore as you-know-what but did I really push myself as far/hard as I could go?” For me, weigh ins on Saturday mornings can either make or break my day.
For the past 3 Saturdays I have stepped on the scale and seen the exact same number. 195.4 . That stupid number haunts me day in and day out. I don’t know what’s wrong. I work my butt off at the gym, I practically eat like a rabbit, but yet I’m still not seeing results on the scale or in my clothing. I feel like I’ve tried everything. I refuse to give up because I know I’m better than that even on my worst day. It’s just incredibly frustrating to work so hard at something and not see any results.
For some reason I feel like my fire has dwindled. I can’t seem to get motivated even though I’ve tried everything. I’ve bought new clothes that are smaller sizes to motivate myself to work out so I will one day fit into them. I’ve made a list of things (that are not food) that I will treat myself too once I’ve hit a certain weight (usually in 5 pound increments). I’ve taken before pictures and have even started a weight loss scrap book. I just don’t know how to get motivated again. I’ve been trying to lose weight for as long as I can remember and nothing is working. I’ve been checked medically and the doctors have reported nothing. I’m not going to give up but I’m afraid that if I don’t start to see results soon that I’ll just fall off the band wagon for good. They say the definition of insane is doing something over and over again and expecting different results. I work out hard and eat healthy day in and day out. I don’t see results but yet I still continue. Am I insane?
Has anyone else ever had this problem? If so I would LOVE to know how you solved it :)