It's a Miracle
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
I've never "blogged" before...but perhaps it will help me on my journey. I'm not sure, but it's worth a try. I have been working at weight loss for over 26 years now. Oh, I lose the weight just fine by exercising and eating right. But I also have lived two lives. The virtuous one...and the opposite one (as far as weight loss is concerned). For years I have teetered through these two lifestyles. It has taken me years to really understand that I ate in response to various emotions; thus, the yo-yo diet perfection that I attained. I hit my highest weight of 225 years ago. I have been able to maintain 170-190 for several years now. Something happened recently that has propelled me to a whole new level in this battle. I think I got mad at all the "restrictions" that I supposedly should live after my breast cancer diagnosis in May of 2010 this past May and June. I was up to 195 before I stopped and realized that I was eating emotionally. Gads! Will I not ever learn???? At least that was my thought in early July 2011. I gathered up my strength and went into the Fitness Director's Office where I volunteer once a week and asked her for help. I told her that I would like her to train me two days a week on my upper body to start with. I started doing this the following Tuesday. Talk about hard. YIKES!!! I now understood why people sometimes vomit or cry when exercising. Sweat was dripping off of me and my face is beet red by the time I am finished. She gives me a real good workout. I wasn't doing much cardio at this point but eventually, thanks to SparkPeople philosophy, I decided that I was successful if I exercised 30 minutes a day, 6 days a week. I took it slow for me (remember I have been at this quite some time). The momentum started pushing me into better and better workouts. People at the gym noticed how hard I was working and would compliment me. That felt really good and provided some motivation for me too. The weight is coming off slowly---a trigger that would usually get me to eat the wrong type of foods. But I am not succombing to that attitude this time! I know it will come off if I do the right things. But here's the miracle. I had a procedure done on my foot last Friday. The doctor doesn't want me exercising for a week and I will see him again in three weeks. My normal self would not exercise at all for the whole 3 weeks so that I guaranteed my foot would heal. Not this time. On Tuesday I warmed up on a recumbant type bike with arm peddles (left foot carefully placed on the floor). I then told my trainer about the restrictions I had. I worked out with her without putting weight on my left foot! I would have never in a zillion years done this before!!! I am so pleased with this behavior that I can hardly express my delight! I think it has finally clicked in my head AND HEART that consistency in healthy habits is the answer. I have known this for years...but unable to embrace the concept fully. Perhaps by blogging about my journey now I will encourage even more healthy habits.