Sabotoging myself STILL
Monday, October 10, 2011
The binging is continuing. I think I am able to stop now. I know what was driving it...partially, it was the simple fact of having sugar in my system--which encourages a greater desire for sweets. The rest was fueled emotionally from a failure to do as well as I would have liked in my Thursday night Body Pump class plus the frustration of having my foot burn with pain the last several days and not 100% sure where the pain came from--FRUSTRATION. So, I have been very foolish, but at least it is recorded. I KNOW BETTER THAN THIS!!! Can i still turn this around? I hope so. I have learned that after a binge the desire to continue is very strong for a day or two. I will report in tomorrow to let you know if I was successful or not. I am worth more than this foolish behavior I cling to at times! I am becoming a new person. The old person showed its face here for a bit---but that IS THE OLD PERSON, I am becoming my best self and that is what I intend to continue being despite this setback!!!