A "Break Through"
Sunday, October 23, 2011
OK, well as you can see from my last blog on October 10th, I didn't blog again until now. I was still struggling between what I wanted in the moment (sugar) and what I really want long term.
I signed up for the on-line Spark People Motivational Meetings for three months. I can go to as many of these meetings as I want during this time period. It's an on-line class so we can be on camera and speak through our microphones or we can stay off camera and just have our voice...or we can listen and just type any questions or comments we have. It's kind of an interesting experience. I really like the leader that I have found. Her name is Krystie and she has lost 107 pounds. She and I have about the same amount of weight to lose still. Anyway, there were only two of us at the meeting yesterday. Another girl, Terry, myself, and the leader, Krystie. It was a moment where I had a great break through. Krystie asked us to visualize our goals and see ourselves at goal. I couldn't do it! Then as we were talking, I realized that I didn't believe that I deserved to do this. She suggested that I tell that "old self" that she wasn't welcome anymore. Terry said that I must love myself. I know this to be true. In fact, I thought I was there...but I'm not, I guess. Anyway, for some reason this was very enlightening. "I don't deserve to be at a healthy weight???!" THAT IS SO ILLOGICAL! IT'S BLATANTLY FALSE TOO. It sounds kind of silly typing it now---but on Thursday, it was revelatory. I have been praying to find out what the reason was that I get stalled right around losing nearly 60 pounds. I feel I got that answer yesterday. I am so grateful for this insight! I don't want to keep losing 55-57 pounds only to bounce back to an unhealthy weight. So, new insight, new determination, new weapon to use in my "artillery" for successful weight loss. I love Spark People!!!