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Thursday, November 03, 2011

I have been challenged by a friend.

I have a hard time watching my food intake. I eat way more than I need to. I know this. Otherwise, I'm fairly healthy. I generally go to the gym 2-3 times a week. I was at the doctor yesterday. My blood pressure was 110 over 70 which they tell me is good. (No meds.) I can walk five miles with out thinking much about it. So, I feel like a fairly fit fat person. (Let's face it. At 225-230, I'm definitely not thin.)

I have no problem with exercise. Sure, let's go work up a sweat, work off some bad mojo. All good. My problem is with FOOD. I like to eat. I like to cook and I like to eat. I have a problem with food.

I try to pretend that it is healthy food. Hey, I'm a vegan, so what I'm eating can't be THAT bad for me, right. That doesn't even fly with ME.

I have been a vegan (no meat, no eggs, no dairy) since February 2007. (Almost 5 years.) I have faced much ridicule about this from my family and friends. Mostly good humored, some of it not so much. But I've preserved. Why? Because I am the very strong willed. I decided this is how it was going to be. My husband has asked me several times if I would (please) go back to being vegetarian (eating eggs and dairy, still no meat). No. Why? (Without getting into the whole-how-animals-are-treated-
thing) because I believe I am doing the right thing.

Today, we went out to lunch as a department to a buffet. Ugh! I did pretty good, but I ate french fries. Now, there is nothing wrong with french moderation. Like I said...I have a problem with food. I have a problem with moderation. I want to eat what I want to eat and how much I want to eat and still be thin. (Not going to happen.)

I was explaining what I had to a friend at work and she said "You are the only person who is in your way." (I knew that.) "You can be strong willed when it comes to eating a vegan diet, refusing food because it has animal products, but not healthy food?" Uh-oh. Never thought about it like that before.

So, I can use this as a paradigm shift...or I can continue the way I have been eating. But I can't use the "I don't have the will power..." excuse anymore. Because I know I do.

(By the way, for anyone who is curious and still reading...I am a taurus. Now I don't put a lot of belief in astrology, but I think bull headed is a good term for me at times.)
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    I think a lot of us are in this same position. Lately I've been really disappointed in myself for how much I eat. I'm very strict when it comes to eating vegan. But just because it's vegan doesn't mean it's healthy. I have stopped with the french fries out in restaurants though. They use the same fryer for the chicken strips and fish and anything else they fry as they do the french fries. So no more fries for me thanks! As you said yourself, you are strong willed and you can do this!! emoticon
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