Thinking about self
Monday, May 07, 2012
I had a bit of a revelation this weekend. And it was both simple and the most difficult thing ever. So, here it is-
Until I accept myself, for who I am, for what I look like right now, I will never be happy and will never reach my goals. Right now I am just clinging to the idea that "someday" when i am thin, when I have better hair or smoother skin or who knows what, someday I will like myself and be happy. But all of that self hatred is just keeping me from my goals. I am hiding, thinking that I will magically be transformed and that everything will be ok. Avoiding mirrors and avoiding taking a real look at myself and the work I need to do.
So for this week, my goal is to be kind to myself, to be generous, to admit my faults but not dwell on them. To be out in the open rather than hiding in the shadows. And this blog post is the first step.