Making Up for Lost Time
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Since the beginning of June I have been trying to blog, but getting so caught up in my emotions, I had to stop. I haven't been able to think straight and of course I haven't been able to eat right. and now I am supposed to go away this weekend and I am having a difficult time 'wanting' to go. If I didn't know any better I would think I am bi-Polar but I had that checked out and was told I'm not. :-) I guess that is something for me to be happy about.
I am so overwhelmed right now that I was practically begging God to take away my emotions, to make me NOT CARE so much so I could have a life of order and control... a life where I can diet and exercise without falling apart crying and wanting to go to bed and sleep out my days. I know this isn't the place for this, but I also know that if I don't get back onto SparkPeople...I will make excuses not to use this sight for anything. I need to put some structure back into my life otherwise my eating will get so bad and I will undo everything I went through to get down to this weight.
I called my friend and asked her WHEN is she going to the GYM and could I go with her. I am thinking, if I have a schedule, and I feel accountable to someone else maybe I will not let my emotions destroy my weight loss and I can continue on a positive road while I go through this "crazy" stuff.
Also, I want to try to track my eating again (something I haven't done in a long time) as well as my walking.. and I need SparkPeople to do this. As I mentioned before, I have been listening to those self-help audios (on dieting, self-sabotaging, relaxing and confidence) and my family thinks they have been helping because this episode hasn't been as bad as the others I've had....lol
Anyway - I am gonna try to blog more often, just to let some of this "air" out my head and to make sure I am on SparkPeople to put in my daily food intake and what not.
Take Care & May God continue to to pour down His blessings on us every day!