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Making Up for Lost Time

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Since the beginning of June I have been trying to blog, but getting so caught up in my emotions, I had to stop. I haven't been able to think straight and of course I haven't been able to eat right. and now I am supposed to go away this weekend and I am having a difficult time 'wanting' to go. If I didn't know any better I would think I am bi-Polar but I had that checked out and was told I'm not. :-) I guess that is something for me to be happy about.

I am so overwhelmed right now that I was practically begging God to take away my emotions, to make me NOT CARE so much so I could have a life of order and control... a life where I can diet and exercise without falling apart crying and wanting to go to bed and sleep out my days. I know this isn't the place for this, but I also know that if I don't get back onto SparkPeople...I will make excuses not to use this sight for anything. I need to put some structure back into my life otherwise my eating will get so bad and I will undo everything I went through to get down to this weight.

I called my friend and asked her WHEN is she going to the GYM and could I go with her. I am thinking, if I have a schedule, and I feel accountable to someone else maybe I will not let my emotions destroy my weight loss and I can continue on a positive road while I go through this "crazy" stuff.

Also, I want to try to track my eating again (something I haven't done in a long time) as well as my walking.. and I need SparkPeople to do this. As I mentioned before, I have been listening to those self-help audios (on dieting, self-sabotaging, relaxing and confidence) and my family thinks they have been helping because this episode hasn't been as bad as the others I've had....lol

Anyway - I am gonna try to blog more often, just to let some of this "air" out my head and to make sure I am on SparkPeople to put in my daily food intake and what not.

Take Care & May God continue to to pour down His blessings on us every day!
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  • no profile photo CD8488582
    YOU ARE RIGHT!

    EVEN USING ALL THE TOOLS IN SPARKPEOPLE.COM, SUCH AS THE NUTRITION TRACKER, REALLY DO TAKE LEARNING AND TIME AND EFFORT.

    I'M STILL FINDING MY WAY AROUND THE TRACKER ALONE.

    AND IT'S TRUE I HAVE HAD TO GIVE UP QUITE A FEW THINGS IN MY LIFE TO EVEN WALK AT LEAST 30 MINUTES EACH DAY FOR MY JUNE CHALLENGES.

    THEN IT TAKES MORE TIME TO COOK RIGHT AND TRACK EVERYTHING IN SP.

    AND THEN MORE TIME TO CONNECT WITH A FEW SPARKERS IN SP EACH DAY OR WEEK.

    AS I SEE IT, GETTING THE WEIGHT OFF IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN EVER FOR ME NOW SO I'M THROWING MY TIME AT IT.

    THIS EFFORT FOR ME IS NOT FOREVER.

    ONCE THE WEIGHT IT OFF, I COULD PERHAPS REDUCE THE EXERCISE EFFORT TO 30 MINUTES 4 TO 5 TIMES PER WEEK.

    AND I'LL HAVE MORE ENERGY SO DOING OTHER THINGS TO MAINTAIN WILL SEEM EASIER?

    I HOPE SO ANYWAY.


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  • MICKEYMAX
    YOU HAVE COURAGE, baby, plenty of courage. I feel your pain and i think it is awesome you are able to capture the feeling, and also reach out to your friend about the gym. Those are amazing. Emotions are a struggle for all of us, I think.

    After to very close together major deaths in my family, I told my doctor that everyone seemed to be handling it well, except for me. I also shared with her that everyone else there was medicated. She told me she was not gone to give me anything to get through emotions I should be feeling. huh? What about all of the others docs? Maybe they didn't care? I'm not much into drugs, so it is better for me this way, but sometimes a girl wouldn't mind a little extra crutch.

    I am praying for you to enjoy yourself and to find the tools you need.

    Go GIRL! I look forward to an update. I think blogs are for whatever you need them to be. No labels. NO right no wrong. Just keep going.
    3282 days ago
  • BLUE48DOWN
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    Just being able to vent and express those emotions can make a lot of difference. Sometimes we get too caught up in not wanting to feel so emotionally about things - but that way leads to trying to hold them in, trying to deny them, and all the unhealthy methods of doing so.

    Try asking God for the strength to carry the burden of those emotions rather than to take them away. After all, as His creation, that means He gave you the ability to feel those emotions for a reason.

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    3282 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12367305
    I love the cartoon! So me.

    I have been faithfully tracking my food...but I have been down this road many times. And right about HERE is where I start self sabotaging. I am trying to hunker down and not allow myself to do that.

    Good luck to you and use the free tools that SparkPeople provides. I keep thinking Weight Watchers online costs money so I should be thankful for the free tracking that is available and by golly use it! I am really good at food tracking (except out of town) but I need to start tracking exercise (and in order to do that I actually have to exercise)!


    3282 days ago
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