I have to be honest with myself above all else
Sunday, September 16, 2012
I don't mean to use excuses or put things off but I do. I have to be totally honest with myself and those around me. I want to lose weight and gain better health but it is so easy to keep saying tomorrow or when I feel better.
I wont feel better till I stop making the excuses and get off my butt!
I have to stop hiding behind the excuse that I will do it tomorrow or as soon as I can make time for it.
I can not lose weight to please someone else nor can I get fit sitting on my butt waiting for something better to come along and inspire me. I am my own worse enemy when it comes to my getting fit and healthier.
I say healthier cause I will never be well. I have some serious health conditions that are not due to weight or the way I eat but will always be with me. But, these do not have to stop me from being better fit.
I have spent years hiding behind the excuse that I have a connective tissue disease and sometimes I am in a lot of pain or I can barely move. But there are days that you would not know that there is anything wrong with me and I still do nothing to help myself to be the best that I can be.
Yes I am tired of pain and being tired and out of breath. But I kept using the but excuse to not do anything about it.
Today and I mean TODAY I am going to change. I may fall and I may have days I don't do as I should yet and I will not say but again. Yet I will continue to strive to be the best that I can be.
TODAY I will do this for myself and for my life. I am tired of the pain from carrying too much weight about my middle. It makes my hips and my knees hurt. Yes it could partly be from the Systemic Lupus but it is definitely from too much weight.
I will keep my weight loss ticker accurate and up to date. No more fudging on but I did get that low. NO I want it to be accurate each week so I can see and I have to be honest with you all as well.
I know I could fail but I want to win!!!! Winners never quit!!!!
It has been a very hard year for me but I am not going to quit on myself or anyone else. TODAY I am starting over and if I have to I will start again tomorrow and the day after but I will never quit again!