Trying To Spring Back
Thursday, March 28, 2013
I have had some rough times to get through these last couple of weeks and have not been on sparks much. I have checked in here and there but every day.
Back in Feb. I was with my youngest daughter and her family to celebrate my grand daughters sixteenth birthday. It was a lot of fun. Every year when I call her on her birthday I always sang You Are My Sunshine instead of happy birthday. I found this cool travel mug that said Good Morning Sunshine so I had to get it for her. Her she is with her mug.
I stayed a few extra days to spend with my and my new grand dauther Carely. I took this picture and thought since a lot of you know my daughter Beth you would like seeing this picture I took of Beth and Carely
Of course I spent alot of time with Chad and Preston as well.
While I was there Emily's dad left her spend a few extra days with us and Emily and I got to do one of our favorite things together after she came home from school. Go out and walk around taking pictures of things. We found a red belly woodpecker Emily's first one. We played around taking pictures of that for a long time and it was such a treat. When Emily was much younger her and I was out for a photo shoot and we took pictures of our shallows we done that again this time. Here is our latest one
Tue. afternoon I got a phone call from my man friend saying that his son was taking him to the hospital for a cat scan they thought he had a stroke. I got up first thing Wed morning and headed to the hospital. By now they knew it was a brain tumor not a stroke. Life move along really fast after that. We brought him home from the hospital Thur. evening and his surgery was scheduled the next Wed. now we are at March 6th. It was a long surgery and it was cancer as a result of the surgery his right side ended up paralyzed. He could not use his right side at all he could not swallow and yet the doctor said we would soon move him to rehab which was great by me. Sat. March 9th I was sitting with him when he had a heart attack and died but he had never told anyone but me that he wanted a DNR put in place so they saved him. His heart had stopped a total of 3 times. After that I told his son that his dad and I had talked about this and that he wanted a DNR put in place which was done than. That dear sweet man hung on for another week one day would be good the next not. Fri. March 15th he was great I called his daughter and told her how good he was and that I was a little scared. The very next morning Sat. March 16th I walked in his room he was in ICU and the nurse says don't have him talk cause he is having a lot of trouble breathing. I stayed with him calmed him down and got his breathing a little better. They tell me I should call his kids to come. By the end of the day they had him on a morphine drip and was slowly taking the oxygen away. I stayed with him all night and he would not let go of my hand. Sun, March 17th while I sit there holding his hand I watched him die for the second time but this time we did not bring him back. He died very peacefully. I only knew this man for a very short time but he was always telling every one I was his Number 1. It was been a very rough time for me and I miss him so much. In my heart I know that God put him and I together for a reason. This man was 80 years old live a very sad life for a long time. I showed him a love he had not had for many years. I have always been a giver and not a receiver and this man taught me how to be more of a receiver. It has been almost 2 weeks since he died and I am fighting my way back to a more normal life and I will get there but I sure will miss this dear sweet man for a long long time. Thanks for listening this is something I felt I had to do this for Marvin.
Here is a recent picture I got of Marvin that is not me beside him I was taking the picture that is one of our friends.