I have been on an eating binge for over a week (or a month), avoiding the scales, avoiding mirrors - avoiding my emotions. I finally did get on the scales and I am shocked at the number. I don't know why I'm shocked. I can see it in the mirror.
I know my patterns and I know this is stuffing down emotions, mindless eating without even tasting it after the first couple of bites, buying things at the store that I know I won't be able to stop eating until they are gone. I tell myself I will have one serving a day but I know me better than that. I will open the bag of tortilla chips and the jar of nacho cheese and before I fall asleep that night, they will both be empty and I will be miserable and popping Tums.
I don't need to rehash the emotional reasons - I know what they are and using them as an excuse is really no excuse. Stuffing down my feelings doesn't work. It never has. It never will.
I don't know you (yet) but am touched by your transparency. I have felt this same pain time and time again -- please get up, dust yourself off and show up for some love and support. One Step, One Day at a Time. I just joined this month and looking to support and be supported. God bless you. 2076 days ago
Mo, I understand completely. I finally had to face the music (scale) and found I weighed 138 at the Dr. 's office. I was 136 in my b-day suit that am. I ned to be beow 130' 127-127 was my goal range at one time. I need to get back there. I need to watch what I eat and amsk myself why I want a particular food before I eat it. 2250 days ago
Mo: I know how you feel because I'm right there. I've been afraid to get on the scales myself. My idea at the moment of "one day at a time" is: THIS day I'm off...scott-free...do whatever I feel like...and so on. Now, TOMORROW! Oh, well. THAT's the day that I'll be better...tomorrow I'm going to be a different person. Yeah, right.
Good luck with grabbing onto today only and make it right. One Day at a Time is so, so wise. And it starts with ACTION not self-will and over-thinking.
I wish you all the best and I hope you will do the same for me.
Mo, I have to fight the same urge and cannot have anything in the house that tempts me. I will eat it all. I chew tons of sugarless gum and drink herbal tea and do my best not to even LOOK at my personal forbidden items in the store.
And this is why I dont' keep any of that stuff in the house. If it is there, I will succumb. It is as much an urge to put something in my mouth as an urge for ingestion. I have diverted that urge to coffee or tea, and the ritual of preparation is part of allaying that urge to eat. Sometimes a cuppa in a cup and saucer rather than a mug can feel like I am doing something special. 2967 days ago
Mo---You just described what I'm going through exactly! I wish we could figure out how to break the cycle.... Hang in there and hopefully by knowing what we are doing, we will figure it out. Love you!
Dear Sweet Mo, you are certainly not alone on this one. I've eaten this way my whole life. Sharing is a positive step. Add in something really healthy next and be proud. One step at a time and forgive yourself as you do those you love. We are loved and valued by our friends and family, we just need reminded sometimes. Love you! 2967 days ago
Unfortunately I can relate to this all to well. I keep getting on and off this track so much that I should have skid marks on my rear end! I do not in any way shape or form claim to know what the solution is at this point. All I can say is, I understand, I empathize, and I hear you loud and clear. 2967 days ago
I agree with the others...it happens to all of us...it's now the point at which you must make the decision...do you go on or stop! Try replacing just ONE time you are going to eat with a walk or something constructive...you know what they say about it takes 21 days to mark or break a habit! Try it...and remember to leet us know how it goes... 2967 days ago