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Emotional Eating

Thursday, June 13, 2013

I have been on an eating binge for over a week (or a month), avoiding the scales, avoiding mirrors - avoiding my emotions. I finally did get on the scales and I am shocked at the number. I don't know why I'm shocked. I can see it in the mirror.

I know my patterns and I know this is stuffing down emotions, mindless eating without even tasting it after the first couple of bites, buying things at the store that I know I won't be able to stop eating until they are gone. I tell myself I will have one serving a day but I know me better than that. I will open the bag of tortilla chips and the jar of nacho cheese and before I fall asleep that night, they will both be empty and I will be miserable and popping Tums.

I don't need to rehash the emotional reasons - I know what they are and using them as an excuse is really no excuse. Stuffing down my feelings doesn't work. It never has. It never will.
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  • KB214R3
    Tomorrow is the 1st day of the rest of your life and I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT! emoticon
    1515 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12202730
    I don't know you (yet) but am touched by your transparency. I have felt this same pain time and time again -- please get up, dust yourself off and show up for some love and support. One Step, One Day at a Time.
    I just joined this month and looking to support and be supported.
    God bless you.
    2076 days ago
    Mo, I understand completely. I finally had to face the music (scale) and found I weighed 138 at the Dr. 's office. I was 136 in my b-day suit that am. I ned to be beow 130' 127-127 was my goal range at one time. I need to get back there. I need to watch what I eat and amsk myself why I want a particular food before I eat it. emoticon
    2250 days ago
  • no profile photo CD15068443
    I know this is an old blog -- but it sure does hit me to a T. I could have written it. Times that I feel like I start over every day. Thanks for your honesty.

    2468 days ago
  • GIVEUP30
    Ok now we got this told we have to stop like your sign said. emoticon
    2721 days ago
  • NOMIS1
    Mo - you are not alone. I'm exactly where you are.
    2794 days ago
  • SANDRA2021
    Just checking of subscribing to your blogs...if it works
    2794 days ago
    Mo. Stop and forget what is done, make a new plan and start again one small step at a time.
    2958 days ago
  • SANDRA2021
    Mo: I know how you feel because I'm right there. I've been afraid to get on the scales myself. My idea at the moment of "one day at a time" is: THIS day I'm whatever I feel like...and so on. Now, TOMORROW! Oh, well. THAT's the day that I'll be better...tomorrow I'm going to be a different person. Yeah, right.

    Good luck with grabbing onto today only and make it right. One Day at a Time is so, so wise. And it starts with ACTION not self-will and over-thinking.

    I wish you all the best and I hope you will do the same for me.

    2961 days ago
  • --KREN
    Mo, I have to fight the same urge and cannot have anything in the house that tempts me. I will eat it all. I chew tons of sugarless gum and drink herbal tea and do my best not to even LOOK at my personal forbidden items in the store.

    2967 days ago
    And this is why I dont' keep any of that stuff in the house. If it is there, I will succumb. It is as much an urge to put something in my mouth as an urge for ingestion. I have diverted that urge to coffee or tea, and the ritual of preparation is part of allaying that urge to eat. Sometimes a cuppa in a cup and saucer rather than a mug can feel like I am doing something special.
    2967 days ago
  • SPILL615
    Mo---You just described what I'm going through exactly! I wish we could figure out how to break the cycle.... Hang in there and hopefully by knowing what we are doing, we will figure it out. Love you!

    2967 days ago
    Mo, you've taken the first step which is to acknowledge it. Put it behind you, forgive yourself, and move forward. Love you! Kat
    2967 days ago
    Dear Sweet Mo, you are certainly not alone on this one. I've eaten this way my whole life. Sharing is a positive step. Add in something really healthy next and be proud. One step at a time and forgive yourself as you do those you love. We are loved and valued by our friends and family, we just need reminded sometimes. Love you! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2967 days ago
    Unfortunately I can relate to this all to well. I keep getting on and off this track so much that I should have skid marks on my rear end! I do not in any way shape or form claim to know what the solution is at this point. All I can say is, I understand, I empathize, and I hear you loud and clear. emoticon
    2967 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4114015
    I agree with the happens to all of's now the point at which you must make the you go on or stop! Try replacing just ONE time you are going to eat with a walk or something know what they say about it takes 21 days to mark or break a habit! Try it...and remember to leet us know how it goes... emoticon
    2967 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2332407
    It happens to all of us. Just take it one Day at a Time.
    2967 days ago
  • LGAR519
    That's exactly what I'm doing now. I thought I was the only one!!
    2968 days ago
    I've been here over a year! Still searching for the spark....sorry!!! emoticon
    2968 days ago
    Mo, just begin again and take one day at the time. Don't feel guilty. We all have those days.
    When I was in Savannah and afterwards getting back; I did some emotional eating.

    2968 days ago
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