Thursday, December 19, 2013
Yes, I'm right back to where I was in November 2007 - just short of it with 2 kilo's.
Thing is I've never found a balance between dieting and living life. It is either all or nothing with me. I've either obsessed about dieting and exercise and let everything else fall by the wayside or completely given up on it and focused on something else - like family. Now, my family is very dear to me. But I've "not have time" for exercise to be committed to being a good wife and mother and homeschooler. As if I cannot juggle more than one ball in the air.
The result is that I'm not happy at all with my body. Not how it looks, but how it functions - or the lack of functioning. So now I feel like I am again letting my family down because I cannot do anything with them with ease. Like: going to the botanical gardens, hiking, walking in a mall, going to the beach, doing anything that needs me to be physically fit in some form or another.
Now the only thing I do comfortably is lying down, than sitting. Walking is a pain. Backache and joint pain. Tiredness, shortness of breath.
Not to mention brain fog, edema, and overall unhappiness with myself.
So, I think a New Years Resolution is in order. This coming year my goal is to find balance. Sounds easy - is not. But I'm going to try my very best so that I can function as a mother, a wife, a friend and a human being. I don't want life to pass me by again.
Have a very happy Christmas and may 2014 hold many blessings and good fortune for you.