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Thursday, December 19, 2013

Yes, I'm right back to where I was in November 2007 - just short of it with 2 kilo's.

Thing is I've never found a balance between dieting and living life. It is either all or nothing with me. I've either obsessed about dieting and exercise and let everything else fall by the wayside or completely given up on it and focused on something else - like family. Now, my family is very dear to me. But I've "not have time" for exercise to be committed to being a good wife and mother and homeschooler. As if I cannot juggle more than one ball in the air.
The result is that I'm not happy at all with my body. Not how it looks, but how it functions - or the lack of functioning. So now I feel like I am again letting my family down because I cannot do anything with them with ease. Like: going to the botanical gardens, hiking, walking in a mall, going to the beach, doing anything that needs me to be physically fit in some form or another.
Now the only thing I do comfortably is lying down, than sitting. Walking is a pain. Backache and joint pain. Tiredness, shortness of breath.
Not to mention brain fog, edema, and overall unhappiness with myself.

So, I think a New Years Resolution is in order. This coming year my goal is to find balance. Sounds easy - is not. But I'm going to try my very best so that I can function as a mother, a wife, a friend and a human being. I don't want life to pass me by again.

Have a very happy Christmas and may 2014 hold many blessings and good fortune for you.
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    all the best Karen and i know you can do it .slow and steady.as long as you are still breathing you should keeing trying. emoticon
    2721 days ago
    All we can do is ... JUST DO IT! You know you are capable of it and I have faith in you!! emoticon
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    Oh yes - I can really relate to the "all or nothing" attitude. Losing weight was the only focus in my life for about 2.5 years, and I got so close to my goal weight. Then I met a man and he became the focus of my life and so I gained back almost all the weight.

    If I had just found some balance I could have had the relationship, the new job, the new city w/ new friends and remained healthy.

    Thanks for posting this today.
    2740 days ago
    It is certainly not easy to find balance and I wonder if it is a myth sometimes. Have you thought about teaching "health" as a subject for homeschooling? I just sort of had this vision of you and your kids learning about health and good eating together, and creating a menu each day that reflects a balanced diet and information of different foods and portion sizes. Maybe an idea??
    All of best in 2014 to you and your family.
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