I wake up around 10:00 and eat breakfast at 11:00 or so of which consisted of a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios, 2% milk, and a banana. I started to get ready for work, took a shower, dried my hair, put my face on and then I called my manager asking if my hours for today were right..My hours working were 3-5..I thought that was just a waste of time to work and she let me come 1 hour early.
So, I go to work without eating anything because I didn't have time. I worked my butt off at work hauling things up and down to the basement and to the main floor because our Manager wanted some glass stands to be brought up and a shelf to be taken down. And of course, I was the only one to participate in this because the other associates and supervisors do not want to take heavy things down the stairs. I soon got very happy for my shift to be over and headed over to the gym across the street from where I work, sliding on the icy street as I get there.
The first thing that I do as I get in the gym is jump on the elliptical..no warm up..Let me just add that it has been about 2 weeks since my last trip to the gym because of the weather..I never warmed up before so I thought why not.. I sweat my butt off on this elliptical and stayed on for about 25 minutes because I wanted to and also because there was a cute guy that jumped on the one beside me and I knew I would out last him ;) and it told me that I burned 220 calories.. (OH and let me add this in too, I HADN'T HAD ANY WATER SINCE BEFORE I LEFT FOR WORK AND BREAKFAST WAS ALL I HAD..) I was happy with that and I finally jumped off to go down some water from the fountain and then hopped on the crunch machine, moved the lever to 10 and did some crunches till I got bored.
Here comes the scary part:
I am sitting on the crunch machine and all of a sudden I get SUPER nauseated, felt like I was going to throw up, could barely move, very shaky..I get up and get on a machine turned towards a wall, text my Gma to come and get me and I just sit there for about 10 minutes with my eyes shut..when I open my eyes everything I see is grey and black..Yes I can see the people in the room and all the machines but they are just all colored grey and black. I started FREAKING out and I thought I was going blind. About 5 minutes into the weird vision thing all the color in the room slowly started to come back and then I ran outside to get some air. (It's like 15 degrees outside here) I went back inside and stood waiting for my ride and started to feel bad again. Soon my ride got there and I slowly got to the car making sure I didn't fall on the ice.
I got in the car, told my Gma what happened and just started balling my eyes out because when I was in the gym..I thought I was going to DIE. My Grandma is listening to me tell her what happened and she is trying to figure it all out in her head. A couple weeks ago I started to have these things again where I will be walking and then my vision just goes black and after a few seconds it all comes back. We got home and she watches me as I go inside, making sure I get in fine. She then gets on the computer and starts to search different things and she finds out that a lot of other people have had things like this happen to them as well. She then tests my sugar level and it was at 104 which is normal and we talk about all the blood tests and heart test I had had and that each one was good. I was not hungry at all at this time and I was freezing and started getting headaches. My Gma gave me a pill for the headaches and I made myself go in the kitchen, have some water, a banana, a slice of deli meat, and then I was craving Cheetos so I had a small bag of those.
And now I am sitting here on the couch, wrapped up in a blanket and writing this blog to you all about my day.
Lately I have been getting really obsessed about my weight, I feel like nothing is good enough.. But today really brought me back. Why can't I just be happy with the progress that I have made so far..why do I feel like I need to push myself and not eat anything to get somewhere..Why do I look in the mirror and just feel fat..? My starting weight was 170 and as of this morning I was 145.
What I learned today:
-Always warm up before you go crazy at the gym or wherever
-Drink water before your workout as well as after the workout
-Eat something before your workout
Drink, Eat, Sleep, Workout