The Hanged Man
Monday, February 24, 2014
Day 1 went well for me. I stayed on track and ate healthy. I even managed to do 30 minutes of Zumba in the bathroom. Why in the bathroom? Well, I'm a little shy when it comes to exercising in front of anyone. This includes my children and my husband. I promised myself I would make no excuses this time. That does not mean I won't encounter obstacles. Everyone does. It's jumping over those obstacles that helps put self-worth and confidence into perspective. Even though I had to exercise on a portable DVD player in a 3 by 2 foot space, I got it done and it felt great.
My calorie goal is already at 1000. Many people pass judgement and tell me how I should be eating more. The truth is, I know my body better than anyone else, and my Diabetes specialist recommended that is what my calorie goal should be. Today though I only got up to 630. That is too low even for my slow metabolism, and sedentary lifestyle. I burned 491 of those calories in Zumba, so yes, tomorrow I will strive to eat more dense foods. Today I ate fish, vegetables, and egg whites.
I took 20 minutes of my day to lay down and cleanse and activate my chakras through meditation. I was feeling "off". Re-aligning myself was exactly what I needed. I think I am finding a balance between physical and spiritual care. Its always such a challenge for me not to go overboard one way or another in all aspects of my life. This showed today in the way I tried tackling many things at once. My mind is efficient and methodical, yet sometimes it's just a better idea to take baby steps.
Baby steps. What does this mean to me? Why is it so hard to grasp the concept of "gradual"? What do the two terms have in common? Well, babies develop in stages. Small, slow, shaky stages. Perfection is not achieved overnight, if in fact it is even possible in our human stage. What then, do I need to learn in order to take "baby steps"? Humility. I need to remember that I am a mere imperfect human, and that is okay. This shall be my next spiritual goal. Ridding myself of the chains of my own ego, so I can grow into the creation I was born to be.