Sugar...it's a slippery slope for me.
Sunday, April 13, 2014
I admire all the sparkers I see that have learned to eat (all things?) in moderation and achieve great success. However, I've learned a few things about myself over the years and one is that I LOVE sweets, more than the average person, I believe.
Somehow, over the years I have developed a true addiction to sugar. I cannot have a package of cookies in the house and stop at just one or two. No, those babies beckon me from across the house, and I am not happy until they are gone. And even then, I cannot say I'm really happy. My hunger for sweets is insatiable.
Beginning tomorrow, I am detoxing from all refined sugar and white flour. These are things that I lack self control with. I will give them up completely for at least 1 month. Then, through careful experimentation, I will see if I am the type of "addict" that can treat myself to sweets in moderation from time to time, or if I need to be very strict about staying away from sugar always. I suspect I will be somewhere in between. I cannot see giving up all treats forever...never enjoying an ice cream cone with my kids or sharing a decadent desert out with my husband, doesn't feel like a sacrifice I'd really like to make. I imagine I will need to be very strict about sugar most of the time (say 90%) and be very diligent about getting back on track after enjoying an indulgence. Not allowing one treat to turn into two, and then before I know it I'm on a week long sugar bender. Instead being very intentional about enjoying the treat and getting serious about my healthy diet right after finishing it.
For now, it's no sugar for me. No white flour . And no alcohol. For 1 month.
I must break this awful addiction. I'm feeling more sluggish, my mind is dull, and the weight gain is uncomfortable. Continuing this way is extremely scary to me. It's time for something a bit drastic. I must remove my food drugs of choice until I'm sure my addictions are broken, and I'm feeling much more in control.
It may be a very rough couple of days at first. Prayers are much appreciated.