I'm struggling through the beginning stages of a separation and likely divorce. I have a great support system, and am finally getting decent sleep after two months of living alone, but I am still struggling with my favorite vice-local, tasty, made-with-love microbrews, with are abundant in Portland.
I replied to a blog post by one of the most inspirational Sparkpeople I can think of, STEPH-KNEE, and I realized i have so many NSVs to celebrate to get me through this difficult time. I know I will never go back to my old ways of bingeing to hide the pain, but I definitely want to relax with my best friend with a beer more often than my pants will allow, so I'm up a few pounds over the top of my "normal" range.
I did an awesome spin HIIT session yesterday morning, and then went for a lovely hike with my mom. I didn't get tired or winded, I didn't need to stop and take breaks, and I wasn't sore today. Those things would have never happened when I was obese. So many things in daily life are easier, and I didn't even realize how many until I listed a few in STEPH-KNEE's blog. Here are a few:
When I was at my highest weight, I took up bellydancing. In bellydancing, all body types are appreciated and respected. I've seen stick-thin dancers and women over 300 lbs dance, smile, own their bodies in a healthy way, and be in a supportive environment. Bellydancing was the first place (besides running) that I felt strong and beautiful. I even performed at a festival (right in the front center because I'm short!) twice-with the traditional choli top and exposed stomach! I would encourage all women to take a Middle Eastern dance class. Low impact on the joints, great for the core, and fantastic for body image and empowerment. Some of the ones I've experienced besides dancing in public:
playing the Wii standing in front of people without worrying how my backside looks (I know that sounds silly, but there it is)
going dancing without feeling self-conscious
walking around the mall/grocery store/retail without worrying I'll bump into someone or take up too much of the aisle
not feeling worried about taking the middle seat in a backseat of a car
not worrying that my behind is falling off the back of a bench at a picnic
not worrying that my thighs are touching my airplane neighbor
not having to turn sideways down the aisle to the bathroom on an airplane
not having my stomach touch the booth in a restaurant
not being self-conscious as a music director in front of a gym full of people (your backside is turned towards the audience when you conduct the band)
not being embarrassed to lean over far enough to get a great view on my angle of my shot in pool and having my booty in someone's way
not getting upset in the summer because the back of my arms wasn't cottage-cheesy.
There are tons more, including not being embarrassed in pictures anymore. Including the one that my mom posted of me on Facebook yesterday! Spark on, sparkers!!!