Ack! I can't pull forward!
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
So I'm having trouble staying motivated towards my goals. All I wanna do is wallow in my on pity and focus on the bad. Which sucks, cause I'm not a negative person! I feel like I'm just kinda stuck between work and crappy home life I'm just - frustrated. I know what I need to do but my mentality won't stay with me. I'm stuck as it's bitch and I don't do that for anyone! Why should I be a captive of my own mind?! Emma Louise penned it correctly when she wrote: "my head is a jungle", I just need it cleared.
A friend and I went snooping at wedding dresses and the like to get ideas for the wedding and I couldn't help thinking: "I don't belong here" and "there's no way I'll pull that off". I hate it! I hate the way I think about myself! I don't wanna play the victim anymore. Life is beautiful and so am I. I just need to let that sink in.
Shut off my self negative mind
Run my butt off
Not give a flying fluff what anyone else thinks
Fall in love with me
Believe in myself