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Ack! I can't pull forward!

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

So I'm having trouble staying motivated towards my goals. All I wanna do is wallow in my on pity and focus on the bad. Which sucks, cause I'm not a negative person! I feel like I'm just kinda stuck between work and crappy home life I'm just - frustrated. I know what I need to do but my mentality won't stay with me. I'm stuck as it's bitch and I don't do that for anyone! Why should I be a captive of my own mind?! Emma Louise penned it correctly when she wrote: "my head is a jungle", I just need it cleared.
A friend and I went snooping at wedding dresses and the like to get ideas for the wedding and I couldn't help thinking: "I don't belong here" and "there's no way I'll pull that off". I hate it! I hate the way I think about myself! I don't wanna play the victim anymore. Life is beautiful and so am I. I just need to let that sink in.

Goals:
Shut off my self negative mind
Run my butt off
Not give a flying fluff what anyone else thinks
Fall in love with me
Believe in myself
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  • SPARTANJAI
    The details are up to you- if it's what you want, then go for it. Don't let the thoughts of what you think someone else is thinking cloud you. Take chances and live the life you want to live- celebrate the good times and learn from the mistakes.
    Good luck on your journey~
    2555 days ago
  • THESUGARPUNK
    Jibbie49: I'm an Aquarius. I'm not using marriage as a cover all, I know who I am without my partner. He's not the answer to my problems, he just the best one to help me figure them out by balancing, completing and complimenting me. Sorry yours didn't work out. That's totally a bummer. :/

    Thanks for the motivation guys! You rock! C;
    2556 days ago
  • GEMINICHIK
    Believe and you will achieve!
    2556 days ago
  • RAYLINSTEPHENS
    ONE day at a time! YOU can do it!
    2556 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    You don't sound like you are a Scorpio, but just to say that Saturn (the negative planet) is in Scorpio and so for some this is a difficult time. Of course, we all have Scorpio some place in our chart so Saturn is always working in some area.
    Remember, getting married isn't really the answer to most problems. Had I known what I know now I'd have stayed single.
    2556 days ago
  • JSPIN74
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    2556 days ago
  • BRAINBENTT
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  • MOMMY445
    those are great goals!
    2556 days ago
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