Disappointed ME

Friday, January 23, 2015

For some time now I knew I was going down the wrong track. But my inner voice said you can live a little. “Have that extra glass of wine:. “Have that little ice cream cone after your dinner”. “You don't have to do yoga or walk to lose weight”. “ You are too stressed to take care of you right now”.
“Get everyone happy and healthy and then you will be too”!

NO! Sorry inner voice! YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG. My happiness is why everything else in my life works well. My emotional wellbeing is the heartbeat of the family. If I am not happy with ME then watch out, because everything else falls apart.

We all have challenges in our lives dealing with family situations, illnesses, sadness, grief, depression, anxiety, etc etc. which contributes to our attitudes and how we feel about ourselves.
Making the right choices about food and exercise can put of the back burner. But I know we have to take care of ourselves.

That is where I am at right now. My jeans, I can get on but are bulging all over, even my undies are tight. Ugh….. OMG why do I keep doing this to me over and over. Tears are not worth it. I just have to get back on track and only I can do it.

We have a big party to go to on Australia Day (Monday coming up). I am making desserts and my DH is making some dishes to bring to my friends who is having about 18 people over. She is alone so we are helping her with everything. It will be fun and the champagne will be flowing! So I am committing myself to start on Tuesday.

Tuesday I am going to track my food, which makes a huge difference. It is too easy to overeat and eat the wrong things when not keeping track. I am also going to start walking the 5k + that I was doing at least 5 times a week.

I am not thinking I can eat anything until then because it is Saturday and Sunday I will be baking. I am drinking lots of water and mentally preparing myself to overcome the fear I have of trying to get fit and back to the good feeling I had when I was about 10 or 15 lbs thinner.

Knowing I can be healthier and in a better head space is worth it! Does anyone else feel like this?
I know my Spark Friends are here for me and will encourage me to continue on down this healthy track.

This was hard to write because I am SO Disappointed in ME! I want to be Happy & Healthy!

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